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⁠How Michael Phelps Built a Champion Mindset: Obsession & Discipline | FO458 Raj Shamani

⁠How Michael Phelps Built a Champion Mindset: Obsession & Discipline | FO458 Raj Shamani

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[00:00]

Phelps, of course, is the most decorated

[00:02]

Olympian [music] of all time. If he was

[00:04]

a country, he would have the third most

[00:07]

swimming medals ever.

[00:10]

Where did this obsession of winning come

[00:12]

from?

[00:13]

>> Hating to lose.

[00:14]

I hate to lose more than I enjoy

[00:16]

winning.

[00:17]

How did this come up?

[00:18]

>> One thing my coach took out of my

[00:20]

vocabulary was the word can't, because

[00:22]

it's going to be exponentially harder

[00:24]

since you told yourself you can't. 28

[00:27]

medals. The second youngest male swimmer

[00:29]

to qualify for a US Olympic team. And

[00:32]

what goes on in your head before even

[00:33]

the race has started?

[00:34]

>> When I'm on the block, nothing. I'm like

[00:36]

a dog trying to get out of the cage.

[00:38]

Like I'm just

[00:39]

Did you use any psychological warfare

[00:43]

sort of tactic against your competitors?

[00:46]

I'm taking care of me and I'm focusing

[00:47]

[music] on what I need in that moment. I

[00:49]

don't give a [ __ ] about my competitors

[00:50]

in that moment. When I'm on the pool

[00:51]

deck, it is a full-blown war.

[00:55]

I want to absolutely destroy them.

[00:57]

Was there anyone you secretly feared as

[00:59]

a competitor?

[01:00]

No, I beat everybody.

[01:02]

I don't care who you are. I'm the shark

[01:04]

in the water.

[01:06]

If I smell that smallest ounce of blood,

[01:08]

I'm going to destroy you. Watch me take

[01:10]

it. Tell me about that phase, which is

[01:12]

your 2008 Beijing, where you won eight

[01:15]

gold medals. History in Beijing for

[01:17]

Michael Phelps.

[01:19]

Eight for eight. For those two years, I

[01:22]

felt unbeatable in the pool. I literally

[01:24]

felt like there wasn't a single soul on

[01:26]

the planet that could touch me, that

[01:27]

could beat me.

[01:28]

In an interview which you gave, the

[01:30]

interviewer asked you that you have won

[01:32]

28 Olympic medals in your life, and you

[01:34]

said no, there's 23 that count.

[01:36]

>> I medaled in 28 out of 30 of my races at

[01:38]

the Olympic Games. 23 are only the ones

[01:41]

that we need to talk to. Silver is

[01:42]

losing? You're second, you lost. Third

[01:44]

place, you lost. I don't talk about the

[01:46]

other five. It's going to be gold.

[01:48]

It's going to be

[01:49]

a new world record.

[01:51]

Once I did make that Olympic team, when

[01:53]

I got fifth, I was pissed because I

[01:55]

didn't want a piece of paper that

[01:57]

somebody said congratulations, you came

[01:58]

and competed. I came because I wanted

[02:00]

something around my neck.

[02:02]

I'm there to hear my national anthem

[02:03]

play. That's it.

[02:07]

Tell me the first time you won the gold

[02:09]

medal.

[02:09]

>> I couldn't get caught up in that one

[02:11]

moment, even though it was special. So,

[02:13]

that gold medal is like, all right,

[02:15]

finished, what's next?

[02:19]

Walk me through four, five techniques or

[02:21]

certain things that you would do in that

[02:22]

five, six years of training, where you

[02:24]

were truly preparing to win gold. We'd

[02:27]

start in the morning with a training

[02:28]

session.

[02:30]

Eat plates of food for breakfast, go

[02:32]

home, take a nap, wake up, eat something

[02:35]

else, go back to the pool, go home, eat,

[02:38]

sleep, wake up, and do it all over

[02:39]

again. Every day for six years? Six-year

[02:42]

stretch where I didn't miss a single

[02:43]

day.

[02:44]

A lot of people say why, and I say why

[02:46]

not. There wasn't a single person on

[02:48]

this planet during those 20 years,

[02:50]

pretty much in my career, that was more

[02:52]

prepared than me. That's why I got the

[02:53]

results that I got.

[02:56]

>> [music]

[03:03]

>> Five Olympic Games, 28 medals, 23 of

[03:06]

them gold, 39 world records. If this man

[03:09]

was a country,

[03:11]

he would have been the third highest

[03:14]

country with the medals.

[03:16]

There is no other human being, there is

[03:19]

no other athlete in the world who has

[03:21]

achieved this much in a single sport as

[03:25]

much as this person has achieved. He's a

[03:27]

beast, he's a maniac. He's achieved

[03:29]

numbers that no human has ever touched.

[03:32]

He's achieved numbers that might never

[03:34]

be touched again. And for six years

[03:36]

straight, this man trained every single

[03:38]

day. No Sundays off, no holidays, no

[03:41]

Christmas, nothing. No excuses.

[03:45]

How did he build this beast wild

[03:49]

mindset?

[03:50]

While the world was moving, he was

[03:52]

training like a maniac. He was obsessed

[03:54]

trying to be better, faster just by 1

[03:57]

second, just by half a second. And

[03:59]

today, on figuring out, we're sitting

[04:02]

with this beast, the absolute goat. It's

[04:05]

an honor to do the podcast with Michael

[04:08]

Phelps,

[04:09]

the greatest athlete, the greatest

[04:12]

Olympian, the athlete which has never

[04:16]

existed before and the world has never

[04:19]

seen.

[04:20]

And in this conversation, we're going to

[04:22]

figure out what it actually takes to

[04:24]

absolutely become the champion and to

[04:27]

build a mindset of a beast so that you

[04:29]

kill every time you enter the arena.

[04:33]

This podcast is like

[04:35]

the masterclass

[04:37]

of an athlete mindset. If you want to

[04:40]

win this year,

[04:42]

watch this till the end.

[04:43]

>> [music]

[04:48]

>> You know, actually, before I even I even

[04:50]

start this,

[04:52]

how about

[04:56]

for 0.01%

[04:59]

people who have no clue who you are,

[05:02]

why don't you tell us, Michael, who are

[05:04]

you? I was a swimmer at one point in my

[05:06]

life.

[05:08]

Um

[05:09]

I won a couple gold medals, broke a

[05:11]

couple world records. Um

[05:14]

competed in five Olympic Games.

[05:18]

Um I'm a father of four now. I have four

[05:21]

boys, nine, seven, six, and almost two.

[05:25]

Um

[05:27]

Yeah, and I think a lot of what I try to

[05:30]

do now is

[05:31]

>> [snorts]

[05:31]

>> is really promote

[05:34]

healthy and active lifestyles, whether

[05:36]

that's water safety with

[05:39]

my foundation,

[05:41]

um or it's really trying to open up the

[05:43]

world to the importance of mental

[05:46]

health.

[05:47]

Um you know, I think for me going

[05:49]

through what I went through the tail end

[05:51]

of my career, um really helped me

[05:54]

explore more about who I am.

[05:57]

Um but also, I think with me

[06:01]

showing my vulnerability and opening up

[06:03]

and talking about the struggles that I

[06:04]

go through,

[06:06]

I've been able to hear others or see

[06:09]

others that have become vulnerable

[06:11]

around me and shared what they go

[06:13]

through.

[06:14]

Um and for me,

[06:16]

I think the second part is way bigger

[06:20]

than the first part. Um because the

[06:23]

second part we're dealing with life and

[06:24]

death.

[06:26]

The first part was awesome. But like,

[06:28]

don't get me wrong, it was incredible

[06:30]

hearing my my national anthem play and

[06:33]

you know, winning a bunch of gold

[06:35]

medals, but you know, the fact that life

[06:38]

and death is also in play with so many

[06:40]

people, I think I

[06:42]

I just heard a stat.

[06:44]

My wife just sent it to me yesterday. It

[06:46]

was

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This is kind [snorts] of crazy to me.

[06:50]

Suicide's the second leading cause of

[06:53]

death

[06:54]

for people 10 to 34.

[06:59]

So, for me, that's why I say the second

[07:01]

part is so much

[07:02]

it's so much bigger.

[07:04]

Um

[07:04]

you know, just being again, being able

[07:06]

to save a life

[07:07]

uh is a thousand times better than

[07:10]

winning an Olympic gold medal. Um and

[07:12]

for me, just being able to have the

[07:14]

platform that I had, that I have,

[07:18]

um to give me

[07:21]

the chance to to speak what I'm

[07:23]

passionate about is is really special.

[07:26]

Let's try to understand both the phases

[07:28]

of your life. Part one, part two.

[07:31]

But before we go there, I want to

[07:32]

understand something about you when you

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were a child, like from the beginning.

[07:37]

Tell me, what do I need to understand

[07:39]

about you when you were 10 years old?

[07:42]

You [snorts] were unable to sit in a

[07:43]

class. You saw your parents' uh

[07:46]

relationship falling off.

[07:48]

You were restless

[07:51]

and not able to just cope up with

[07:53]

everything which normal kids do. Yeah.

[07:55]

What do I need to understand about that

[07:57]

Michael? Um I mean, I I I I I I I I I

[07:59]

and everything that came after. Yeah, I

[08:01]

mean, [snorts] I think for me, uh

[08:05]

you know, going back even before 10, you

[08:08]

know, when I was 7 years old, I was

[08:11]

you know, nonstop kind of bouncing off

[08:13]

the wall. You know, I was always around

[08:15]

the pool. My my two older sisters swam,

[08:17]

so I was around the pool all the time,

[08:19]

so water safety was

[08:21]

uh something that was a big priority for

[08:23]

my mother and and you know, once I was

[08:26]

in the water and I was safe there,

[08:29]

you know, I was just kind of playing

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around the pool all the time. So, that's

[08:32]

when I got into the water, and then the

[08:34]

water was kind of

[08:36]

a release for me. Um you know, being

[08:39]

able to

[08:41]

kind of swim as hard as you want to go

[08:43]

faster with, you know, anger, if you

[08:46]

might have it, was something that I

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enjoyed.

[08:50]

Um yeah, it wasn't great dealing with

[08:53]

anger as a 7, 8, 9, 10-year-old kid. Um

[08:57]

but for me, it was an outlet. Uh and it

[09:00]

was something that that, you know, I

[09:02]

ended up falling in love with, and uh

[09:05]

yeah, I mean, I I remember in

[09:08]

uh middle school,

[09:10]

>> [clears throat]

[09:11]

>> I was told uh by my teachers that I

[09:14]

would never by excuse me, by a teacher,

[09:17]

uh that I would never amount to

[09:19]

anything.

[09:20]

Um and and I still remember her name and

[09:23]

and

[09:24]

uh I still remember what she looks like.

[09:26]

I still remember where I was sitting in

[09:27]

the class. Um and and I think at that

[09:31]

point for me, I used it as motivation.

[09:34]

Um you know, the the fact that a

[09:36]

teacher, number one, would say they're

[09:38]

doubting a student and not knowing how

[09:40]

to deal with them, I think is

[09:42]

saddening, it's upsetting.

[09:45]

Um but for me, I was like, watch this,

[09:47]

I'm going to prove you.

[09:49]

Uh and I think at the time, that was

[09:51]

pretty much when I

[09:53]

had stopped taking um

[09:56]

Ritalin, which was for my ADHD.

[09:59]

Uh,

[10:00]

so my ADHD I literally was like I was

[10:03]

all over the place. I was leaning back

[10:05]

in the chair on the back legs, leaving

[10:07]

dents on the in on the floor in the

[10:09]

classroom, always getting sent to the

[10:11]

principal's office, and honestly I just

[10:13]

had a really hard time sitting still.

[10:15]

Um,

[10:16]

and at that point my mom was, you know,

[10:18]

I was playing baseball, I was playing

[10:19]

lacrosse, I was playing soccer, and I

[10:21]

was swimming. I was playing all these

[10:23]

different sports just to try to get the

[10:25]

energy out of me. My mom was just like I

[10:27]

don't know what to do with him. Um, and

[10:29]

it's crazy fast forward now to where I'm

[10:31]

40 and I have four kids. It's the same

[10:34]

way.

[10:34]

>> [laughter]

[10:34]

>> Their kids are non-stop. Um,

[10:37]

but I think, you know, going back to

[10:39]

that point I I think swimming really

[10:41]

gave me

[10:43]

something to focus on. Um, yeah, I was

[10:47]

that

[10:48]

well, I still am that kind of ADD, kind

[10:51]

of all over the place, jittery, like

[10:53]

kind of always moving around. Like

[10:55]

that's just who I am. That's my

[10:56]

personality. So, you know, I think over

[10:59]

time I naturally took something that

[11:01]

somebody labeled me with having or being

[11:05]

a less than of a kid, I took that into

[11:08]

into almost really making it a

[11:10]

superpower. Um, because it gave me the

[11:13]

ability to focus on things that I was

[11:15]

really passionate about. Um,

[11:17]

See, your teacher said she must have

[11:19]

noticed and the rest of the world just

[11:20]

noticed how you were as a kid who

[11:22]

restless not able to sit anywhere.

[11:24]

What do you think

[11:26]

that teacher didn't get or the world

[11:28]

didn't get about that kid who was not

[11:32]

able to sit properly? Because uh, you

[11:34]

definitely had something in you and you

[11:37]

>> I just thought she didn't know how to,

[11:39]

whether it's a lack of better way of

[11:40]

saying it, like I don't I don't think

[11:42]

she wanted to deal with me or knew how

[11:44]

to deal with me or knew how to handle me

[11:47]

or knew or knew how to taught me, teach

[11:49]

me, right? Like she didn't she just

[11:50]

didn't know.

[11:51]

Um, and you know, like for me

[11:54]

like my mother has been in education for

[11:56]

50 years.

[11:57]

You know, like that's her passion. Her

[11:59]

passion is being in the classroom to try

[12:01]

to make an impact for a student. To try

[12:03]

to help them take whatever they're

[12:05]

learning in that year, that classroom,

[12:08]

and catapult it to help them into the

[12:10]

rest of their life, to help transform

[12:12]

them into what they want to be. And all

[12:14]

of those steps need to happen, but when

[12:16]

a teacher, you know, instantly shuts

[12:18]

down on a kid,

[12:20]

it just doesn't look good for the

[12:21]

teacher.

[12:22]

Um, but I mean,

[12:24]

>> [clears throat]

[12:26]

>> I think I got like a C in her class, so

[12:29]

like let's be honest. Yeah.

[12:31]

I was kind of like just get me out of

[12:33]

here. You know, like that was my least

[12:35]

least favorite class that I went to

[12:36]

every single day and I sat there.

[12:37]

>> class was it? English.

[12:39]

I hated English. You [snorts] know, and

[12:41]

and maybe it was how she was teaching it

[12:43]

to me. Because I had teachers that were

[12:44]

great. You know, like I had teachers

[12:46]

throughout my my

[12:48]

uh, elementary, middle, and high school

[12:50]

where they were awesome and they helped

[12:53]

me understand when I had problems

[12:55]

learning what everybody else was

[12:57]

learning faster than what I was

[12:59]

learning.

[13:00]

Or if I was learning things faster than

[13:02]

everybody else, then she gave me he or

[13:04]

she gave me stuff

[13:06]

to help me stay focused, right? Like

[13:08]

that I I I think it's just

[13:11]

uh, everybody has a different mind and

[13:13]

everybody is able to handle or control

[13:16]

as much as they can. Um, and she just

[13:19]

didn't know what to do. Uh, it was sad

[13:21]

and I'm sure there still are teachers

[13:23]

out there in the world that are like

[13:24]

that and

[13:25]

it is it is unfortunate and it is sad.

[13:28]

Um, but to the kids out there who do

[13:31]

have an experience like that, know that

[13:34]

there are other outcomes that can happen

[13:36]

in life. Um,

[13:39]

I mean, people doubted me in the

[13:40]

swimming pool, too. And honestly, like

[13:42]

for me again, it was just it was a form

[13:45]

of motivation. That was it. You know,

[13:47]

like if somebody wants to doubt me, like

[13:48]

I've been on this kick lately where I've

[13:50]

just been firing off quotes on

[13:52]

Instagram. Just like on my story, just

[13:54]

ripping quotes off that just like fit me

[13:56]

in the morning. And I'm like I'm I'm I'm

[13:58]

a big quotes person and and you know,

[13:59]

like throughout my career my coach would

[14:01]

always put quotes on the top of the

[14:03]

workout. Um, motivating quotes or just

[14:06]

quotes that people need to hear that for

[14:08]

me that I need to hear. Um, you know,

[14:11]

for for whatever you're going through

[14:13]

life, so yeah, I can

[14:14]

>> Which one's your favorite quote now?

[14:16]

I mean, my my favorite quote is actions

[14:18]

speak louder than words. You know, like

[14:20]

that's that's one of my all-time

[14:22]

favorite hands-down quotes because it

[14:25]

it's true. You know, like you can say

[14:27]

whatever you want, but if your actions

[14:29]

don't back up those words, then all it

[14:30]

is is just a bold-faced lie, you know?

[14:33]

So, you know, for me like throughout my

[14:35]

career like I I wanted to,

[14:38]

you know, break this world record, win

[14:40]

this gold medal, whatever it was, and I

[14:43]

knew that there had to be a process on

[14:45]

how to get there, right? Like I can't

[14:47]

just say it and snap my fingers. There

[14:49]

had to be, you know, every single day

[14:52]

little baby things that were stacked on

[14:53]

top of each other and little baby steps

[14:55]

that were heading towards that goal. And

[14:57]

if I was taking steps backwards, then

[14:59]

I'm just cheating myself.

[15:01]

What what do you think

[15:04]

you said water became your escape and

[15:06]

you were just always in the pool taking

[15:07]

out your anger

[15:09]

and everything. Like it it became your

[15:11]

coping mechanism in some sort and you

[15:12]

were always in the pool, right?

[15:13]

>> Mhm. What do you think what did water

[15:15]

give you

[15:16]

emotionally which nothing else could?

[15:20]

Um, I [clears throat] mean, my kids call

[15:22]

me Aquaman now, so I guess

[15:24]

>> [laughter]

[15:24]

>> it's kind of the same

[15:25]

Um, you know, I I don't know. I think

[15:28]

thinking back to it and, you know, kind

[15:30]

of being able to dive through my career

[15:32]

a little bit inside the pool.

[15:35]

Um,

[15:35]

I was super sensitive to every little

[15:38]

part of the water in my body, right? So,

[15:40]

like when I would swim, I'm feeling the

[15:42]

water in the palm of my hands.

[15:45]

Like that's where I'm feeling all the

[15:47]

pressure. So, if my shoulder my my arm

[15:49]

or my body is not a certain way, then

[15:51]

I'm not able to feel that. So, it's all

[15:53]

trial and error and trying to get in the

[15:55]

right position.

[15:57]

Um, and naturally I think, you know, for

[15:59]

me just being submerged in water, I just

[16:03]

felt at home.

[16:05]

Um, I don't know, for lack of better

[16:07]

terms. Like, you know, even that even

[16:09]

like now,

[16:11]

if I go into a big depression state or

[16:14]

I'm just in a grouchy mood for a couple

[16:17]

of days and workout hasn't helped and,

[16:19]

you know, my normal routine hasn't

[16:21]

helped, whether it's the cold tub or the

[16:22]

sauna, you know, I'll I'll just get, you

[16:25]

know, my wife will just kick me out of

[16:26]

the house and say go go jump in the

[16:28]

swimming pool.

[16:29]

Um, because it's it's kind of like the

[16:31]

only place where

[16:33]

I I don't have anybody talking to me.

[16:36]

I don't have to think about stroke. I

[16:39]

don't have to think about what I'm

[16:41]

having for dinner or what I'm making for

[16:42]

dinner or what I'm doing tomorrow or

[16:44]

this or that.

[16:46]

I'm just there in the moment.

[16:49]

Right? Like I can just be. And I can

[16:51]

swim for 500, which is, I mean,

[16:56]

minimal compared to what I used to swim.

[16:58]

>> [laughter]

[16:58]

>> Um, or I could swim 2,000. It doesn't

[17:01]

matter. Like

[17:03]

just being able to be back in the water,

[17:06]

being back into that environment I think

[17:08]

is kind of one of my reset switches.

[17:12]

Um, that kind of just levels me out.

[17:15]

Do you think you were running away from

[17:16]

something? Or you were you were swimming

[17:20]

away from something or swimming towards

[17:22]

something? I think I found swimming,

[17:24]

yeah, as an outlet, but I think, you

[17:26]

know, the reason why I found swimming is

[17:28]

my two older sisters swam as well. So,

[17:30]

you know, for me kind of seeing what

[17:32]

they were doing and my middle sister

[17:35]

Whitney was traveling all over the world

[17:37]

and she was on world championship teams.

[17:39]

I was like, "Wow, that seems pretty

[17:40]

cool." Like she was trying to go to the

[17:42]

Olympic Games and I was like, "Yeah, I

[17:43]

want to go to the Olympic Games." Like,

[17:45]

"Hell yeah, like who doesn't want to go

[17:46]

to the Olympic Games?" Um, and I I just

[17:49]

kind of followed and and, you know,

[17:51]

naturally as a kid if you learn that you

[17:54]

get good or you start getting faster,

[17:59]

you kind of think how fast can I get?

[18:01]

And that's kind of what I did. You know,

[18:03]

like from the start until the end of my

[18:05]

career I was

[18:07]

kind of like, "All right, how how much

[18:09]

faster can I get? Can I drop a second?

[18:11]

Can I drop a half a second? Can I drop

[18:13]

two tenths? Like what is the maximum

[18:16]

potential that I have inside of me and

[18:18]

how can I challenge myself in different

[18:20]

ways?"

[18:21]

Um, swimming for me like again, like

[18:24]

I would scream underwater. You can't

[18:26]

hear me. Like

[18:28]

I would call my coach every single

[18:30]

[ __ ] name on the planet. Like sorry

[18:33]

for profanity, but like like I literally

[18:35]

would. Like because there were times

[18:37]

where I was so frustrated and so angry

[18:41]

and there was nothing else I could do,

[18:42]

whether it was like I my body was in

[18:44]

pain, I I mentally couldn't do it or I

[18:47]

felt like I couldn't do it. Um, I would

[18:49]

just scream and then naturally I would

[18:52]

still get through it and it would go

[18:54]

well and blah blah blah blah blah, but

[18:57]

it's like in that moment like for me

[18:59]

screaming was one of those things that

[19:00]

would just let everything out. Um, and

[19:03]

it's something that like, you know,

[19:04]

we've taught our kids. Um, again, we

[19:07]

have four boys and and the emotions get

[19:10]

high.

[19:11]

So, you know, we taught them this thing

[19:13]

called a lion breath where you take a

[19:15]

deep breath and you roar like a lion.

[19:18]

And you scream as loud as you can. And

[19:20]

again, with I mean, the younger one

[19:22]

doesn't scream that much, but like the

[19:24]

three older ones it's a lot of noise,

[19:26]

but it's again, like we find once

[19:28]

they're able to do that, their shoulders

[19:30]

drop a little bit and they're able to

[19:32]

have that conversation of what big

[19:34]

feelings emotions they're going through

[19:35]

inside instead of carrying them along

[19:37]

through life. Can you show me what what

[19:39]

is it? Like what's the lion breath? Uh,

[19:41]

you don't want me to scream in here.

[19:43]

It's okay. You can just show it like a

[19:44]

little bit

[19:45]

>> it's just like

[19:45]

>> one version of it.

[19:46]

>> [sighs]

[19:46]

>> Ah, and you obviously you can scream as

[19:49]

loud as you want, but it's it's

[19:50]

literally just take a deep big, big, big

[19:53]

deep breath in and just scream as loud

[19:56]

as you possibly can. And naturally like

[19:58]

naturally when when you do that, your

[20:01]

shoulders do drop a little bit, right?

[20:02]

You are able to kind of

[20:04]

come back to earth, right? Be your

[20:06]

normal self. Like I always joke, there

[20:08]

was uh

[20:09]

the candy, the Snickers bars commercial.

[20:12]

Um it's always they they they always

[20:14]

show them here, but it's it's uh it's a

[20:17]

commercial where it's like you take a

[20:18]

bite of a Snickers and you just feel

[20:19]

like you're normal self. Like I feel

[20:21]

like that's what that's what it is. Like

[20:23]

what Snickers is saying like when you

[20:24]

have a sugar low, you eat some sugar and

[20:26]

naturally you feel better. But here it's

[20:29]

like if you're stressed or you're

[20:30]

frustrated and you take that deep

[20:32]

breath, you're able to be like

[20:34]

huh, okay. So, why am I going through

[20:36]

that? What feelings and emotions am I

[20:38]

going through? And you're able just to

[20:39]

get it all out. Like for me it's, you

[20:41]

know, there are a bunch of different

[20:42]

things that I do.

[20:44]

Um I don't do lion's breath that often,

[20:46]

but

[20:47]

uh when I'm in the pool it's very easy

[20:48]

to do it.

[20:50]

Um

[20:50]

but yeah, I mean there there's a

[20:52]

checklist that I have for my own mental

[20:53]

health. So, you would So, you used to

[20:56]

scream inside the pool a lot. Or like

[20:59]

underwater like

[21:00]

>> Underwater, right?

[21:01]

>> Like when I was going and taking like

[21:03]

when I was doing my streamlines off the

[21:04]

wall and I was kicking underwater, I

[21:07]

would

[21:08]

there were a lot of F bombs that were

[21:09]

said. Yeah, that was one of my favorite

[21:11]

words to scream underwater. And people

[21:13]

could hear it. Honestly like when you're

[21:15]

in a set, like person next to me would

[21:17]

be like, "Did you just scream?" And

[21:19]

you're like, "Mhm, [clears throat] I

[21:20]

did. I did." And they're like, "All

[21:22]

right, we have one more." And you're

[21:23]

like, "Yep, we got one more repeat.

[21:25]

Let's go."

[21:26]

Um but it it's just

[21:28]

it's kind of like in the moment like it

[21:30]

it

[21:31]

I feel like I needed

[21:33]

I needed to do that just to get through.

[21:36]

Um and everybody I think probably has

[21:37]

something different, right? But that

[21:39]

that was just me. It was screaming

[21:40]

underwater. It's same thing like when

[21:42]

I'm in the weight room now like I I was

[21:45]

just traveling overseas and and I was

[21:47]

lifting in I think it was Mumbai.

[21:50]

And I was in the weight room and I was

[21:53]

like grunting.

[21:56]

And then like everybody in the gym like

[21:57]

looked at me and I was like, "Shit." And

[21:59]

I'm looking into a mirror and

[22:00]

everybody's face is staring right at

[22:02]

you.

[22:03]

Um but it's just kind of something that

[22:05]

I do. Um I mean I used to do it right

[22:07]

when I get up onto the block. You know,

[22:09]

right after I did my arm slap, it was

[22:11]

something that I would always do, just

[22:12]

clear my throat.

[22:14]

So, is it you were screaming a lot

[22:16]

because you were obsessed with trying to

[22:18]

win? Or was it A lot of different

[22:20]

things. It was probably yeah, I wanted

[22:22]

to win. I wanted to push through

[22:23]

whatever I was going through or I was

[22:25]

emotionally just ready to snap and

[22:28]

screaming was something that would help

[22:30]

me.

[22:31]

Where did this obsession of winning come

[22:33]

from? Was it

[22:34]

Hating to lose.

[22:36]

But

[22:36]

>> I hate to lose more than I enjoy

[22:38]

winning.

[22:38]

>> Even when you were like 9, 10, 11?

[22:41]

How did this come up?

[22:43]

I don't know.

[22:45]

It was just something I always had. Like

[22:46]

I always felt from from when I was a

[22:49]

little kid like

[22:51]

there was there was there was no second

[22:54]

place.

[22:55]

That wasn't an option.

[22:57]

It's just something that I always I mean

[22:58]

like

[23:00]

I remember winning home run derby at 10

[23:02]

or 11 years old. Like I was the biggest

[23:05]

kid playing lacrosse, playing long stick

[23:07]

middie,

[23:08]

um just slashing people with the stick.

[23:11]

Um

[23:12]

yeah, I mean

[23:13]

winning winning was everything. Yeah. Do

[23:16]

you think it has anything to do with

[23:18]

not getting your father's approval when

[23:20]

you were a kid?

[23:22]

Um the absence of

[23:25]

I don't think so.

[23:26]

Uh because

[23:28]

I I mean I I would say a lot of it

[23:29]

probably came from him

[23:31]

um because he was he was kind of more of

[23:34]

the athlete from my parents'

[23:37]

relationship. He was

[23:39]

a baseball player, a football player,

[23:41]

track and field stud.

[23:43]

Um

[23:44]

he I think he was the first person to

[23:47]

get cut from uh the Washington Redskins

[23:50]

back in the day

[23:51]

uh when they were the Redskins. So,

[23:53]

um winning or trying to be the best is

[23:56]

something that that in sports was

[23:59]

something that he was he was very good

[24:01]

at. Like competition in sports that that

[24:04]

was something that he excelled in. Um I

[24:07]

would say my sister Whitney and I are

[24:10]

uberly competitive, more competitive

[24:12]

than my older sister Hillary. Um

[24:14]

especially in sports.

[24:16]

Um there's there's just Yeah, I mean for

[24:18]

us again there was just there was no

[24:20]

second place.

[24:22]

Um

[24:24]

you know, for me it it it ended up

[24:26]

becoming preparation, right? Like

[24:28]

preparation is everything. If you're not

[24:30]

prepared, then

[24:32]

you're going to get second or you're

[24:33]

going to get third or you're going to

[24:35]

get last, right? Because there's always

[24:37]

somebody that is overly prepared or more

[24:39]

prepared than you are, no matter what.

[24:41]

So, for me I just became that person.

[24:44]

There wasn't a planet. There there there

[24:45]

there wasn't there wasn't a single

[24:47]

person on this planet

[24:50]

during those 20 years pretty much of my

[24:53]

career. You know, I had a couple losses

[24:56]

that I can name for through my Olympic

[24:58]

career.

[25:00]

But there wasn't another person on this

[25:01]

planet that was more prepared than me.

[25:03]

Not, period.

[25:05]

There wasn't. That's why I got the

[25:07]

results that I got. It's not rocket

[25:09]

science. It's not.

[25:11]

I put in the work, I got the results.

[25:13]

That's it.

[25:14]

Let's let's go to your preparation time

[25:16]

and like when you first started with

[25:18]

your coach.

[25:19]

>> Yeah. And

[25:21]

first when your coach spotted you

[25:24]

in the same year he went to your mother

[25:26]

and said that you're going to win an

[25:27]

Olympics or you're going to be in the

[25:28]

Olympics, right? What was that story?

[25:30]

Tell me about it. My coach came to North

[25:32]

Baltimore Aquatic Club where I was

[25:33]

swimming where my sister swam. Long

[25:36]

tradition of uh of excellence with that

[25:38]

club in Baltimore.

[25:41]

You know, from

[25:43]

1984

[25:46]

until 2016

[25:49]

there was

[25:51]

at least one person on every single

[25:53]

Olympic team.

[25:55]

Wow.

[25:56]

So, my coach came in '96 [snorts]

[25:59]

or right before '96, maybe '95. Okay.

[26:03]

Um

[26:05]

and he was helping my sister's group a

[26:07]

little bit.

[26:09]

Uh my middle sister's group a little bit

[26:10]

prepare for uh Olympic trials and the

[26:13]

Olympic Games in '96. And

[26:16]

then the group kind of split and he took

[26:18]

over a different group. I think I'm

[26:19]

thinking I'm explaining this right away.

[26:21]

Um

[26:22]

and then I remember seeing him while I

[26:24]

was that kid playing at the pool.

[26:27]

You know, I was only swimming like three

[26:29]

days a week. Like I really wasn't

[26:30]

training that much back then.

[26:32]

And I would always play, play, play and

[26:36]

I would see him go up and down the pool,

[26:40]

walk, run, arms up in the air,

[26:43]

screaming, whistling. And I was like

[26:46]

like I remember being like, you know,

[26:48]

like

[26:48]

if it was me back then what I was

[26:50]

thinking, I would be like there's no

[26:51]

[ __ ] chance I'm swimming for that

[26:53]

man. Like he is an absolute lunatic.

[26:57]

Fast forward a year,

[27:00]

I spent 20 years 20 plus years of my

[27:02]

life with that man and he is my only

[27:04]

coach. Um but it it it's kind of crazy

[27:06]

because, you know, seeing it you know, I

[27:09]

think at that age I was like, "Man, like

[27:11]

truly like this guy's nuts."

[27:13]

Um

[27:14]

but what I learned it was just the

[27:15]

passion that he has. And that he that

[27:17]

that he had back then that he still has

[27:19]

today. Um But did he come to you or you

[27:21]

went to him? So,

[27:23]

uh I was I was excelling in the group

[27:26]

that I was in and and I needed to be in

[27:29]

a higher group. And and I was 11 years

[27:31]

old at this time and the kids that were

[27:32]

in that group were like

[27:34]

14, 15, 18 years old. Like way older,

[27:39]

way more mature. Um but I was faster

[27:42]

than them.

[27:44]

So, I I ended up swimming in that group

[27:46]

and and I got to that group and and but

[27:48]

before I got there my coach sat down

[27:50]

with my parents one night and he's like,

[27:52]

"Well, look like if if, you know, your

[27:54]

son wants to make the Olympic team in

[27:55]

four years, he can make the Olympic

[27:56]

team."

[27:57]

As an 11-year I I was 11 years old.

[28:00]

He said that to you? He said that to me.

[28:02]

And he's like, "But look, he's like you

[28:03]

got to stop playing baseball, lacrosse,

[28:05]

and soccer."

[28:07]

But for me like looking back now like

[28:09]

those playing those four different

[28:10]

sports

[28:12]

I think naturally gave me a better body

[28:14]

awareness. Like the more I talk to the

[28:17]

professional athletes from all sports,

[28:19]

all walks of life now,

[28:21]

that's the same thing they did.

[28:23]

Playing multiple sports. Don't be super

[28:25]

hyper focused on one sport. But at a

[28:27]

certain time there's then going to be a

[28:29]

decision that you have to make.

[28:31]

It it's it's just naturally I feel like

[28:33]

that's how it is in sports. If you

[28:34]

really want to be the best at one sport,

[28:38]

there's a

[28:39]

you have to make a decision at some

[28:40]

point. Um just because of the process of

[28:43]

development, this, that, and the other.

[28:45]

Um but back then, yeah, he he sat down

[28:48]

and said that and I was like, "All

[28:48]

right, kind of like fine. Like I'll stop

[28:50]

playing these other sports. I'll focus

[28:51]

on swimming. No problem." And I just

[28:54]

remember back then I I I was I was the

[28:57]

Energizer Bunny. Like he basically would

[28:59]

wind me up and I would just go. Or he

[29:01]

would say jump and I would say how high.

[29:03]

Um

[29:05]

because he gave me that vision of

[29:09]

wanting to go to the Olympic Games.

[29:12]

To then

[29:15]

make the dream of winning an Olympic

[29:17]

gold medal

[29:20]

even bigger. Because you know, I just

[29:22]

thought about going.

[29:24]

And then I'm like, "Maybe I could win,

[29:26]

right? Like that would be pretty cool."

[29:28]

When you were 11 and he said that to you

[29:29]

for the first time that

[29:32]

you could go to Olympics in next four

[29:33]

years. Did you believe it? Or did you

[29:35]

act act like someone who believed it

[29:38]

until it actually became true? Uh I

[29:40]

believed it because he showed confidence

[29:44]

in me.

[29:45]

As an 11-year old

[29:46]

>> Something that he saw of me in the pool

[29:49]

gave him confidence that he could do

[29:51]

that.

[29:52]

He had already trained and worked with

[29:54]

previous Olympic coaches, Olympic

[29:56]

athletes,

[29:57]

and he saw something.

[30:00]

Um

[30:00]

and honestly, I think back to the

[30:02]

question you asked earlier, like you

[30:04]

know, he then became a father figure in

[30:07]

my life, right? Because

[30:09]

I I mean, I literally spent

[30:11]

spent 25 years traveling the world with

[30:15]

him,

[30:15]

right? So, I mean, like basically my

[30:17]

whole entire life was

[30:19]

hand in hand with him. Everything we did

[30:21]

swimming related was together. Um

[30:25]

and and you know, I think once I did

[30:28]

make that Olympic team,

[30:30]

that really really made me trust him.

[30:34]

Because I was like like like for me

[30:35]

because I know you said don't skip, but

[30:37]

like when I made that Olympic team and I

[30:40]

got fifth,

[30:43]

I was pissed, but I was hungry.

[30:45]

Right? Because I didn't want a piece of

[30:47]

paper that somebody said,

[30:48]

"Congratulations, you came and

[30:49]

competed." That's not why I came.

[30:52]

I came because I wanted something around

[30:53]

my neck. That's it.

[30:55]

So, I remember that day after my Olympic

[30:58]

final in Sydney,

[30:59]

the workout paper he wrote down, it said

[31:02]

WR on the top of it. And for people who

[31:05]

don't know, that means world record.

[31:08]

And I was like, "What's this?"

[31:09]

He goes, "You're going to break a world

[31:10]

record in 6 months."

[31:13]

And I was like,

[31:14]

"Okay.

[31:15]

Sure. Let's see what happens."

[31:17]

Sure enough, 6 months later, I break a

[31:19]

world record. So, like again, like

[31:21]

that's where the whole trust really

[31:23]

really opened up. Um but but you know, I

[31:27]

think through you know, from the time I

[31:29]

got with him to the time I was 15,

[31:34]

he basically just broke my strokes

[31:36]

completely apart.

[31:39]

Um like he started from scratch.

[31:42]

Uh you know, I I had some good things

[31:45]

going on with my body and how I swam and

[31:48]

the reach, obviously I have super long

[31:50]

arms, long wingspan, short legs, really

[31:53]

strong legs, um short but wide. My my

[31:56]

[clears throat] my quads are huge. Um

[32:00]

so for me like it when I got to him at

[32:02]

11 years old, I still remember back in

[32:04]

the day, so the people who don't

[32:05]

understand swimming, a six-beat kick

[32:08]

is

[32:10]

three kicks per one stroke. So, it's

[32:13]

one, two, three with your legs per one

[32:15]

stroke.

[32:17]

So, he was teaching me the importance of

[32:18]

a six-beat kick. It wasn't 11, I forget

[32:20]

what age it was, but um

[32:24]

he said, "Every time you drop your legs

[32:25]

in a practice and you don't do a

[32:27]

six-beat kick, I'm going to kick you

[32:28]

out."

[32:30]

And the first day I got through like

[32:32]

500 of a 6,000-yard workout.

[32:36]

Kicked me out. Next day, 2,000, kicked

[32:38]

me out. Next day, 2,500, kicked me out.

[32:40]

Next day, 3,000, kicked me out. Next

[32:42]

day, 4,000, kicked me out. By the end of

[32:44]

the week, I got to a full workout.

[32:46]

And from that day forward,

[32:48]

I never dropped my feet for a single

[32:50]

stroke of freestyle

[32:52]

for the rest of my career.

[32:55]

Did I agree with what he was doing? No,

[32:56]

it sucked getting kicked out. It was

[32:58]

absolutely miserable sitting there

[32:59]

watching my friends train and and and be

[33:02]

in a practice, but I learned the

[33:04]

importance of the small technical points

[33:07]

that you have to have

[33:09]

in order to be able to go wherever you

[33:12]

want to go, right? Like it's almost like

[33:14]

a college level class. You can't take

[33:16]

the thousand level class without taking

[33:18]

the one through nine, right? Like so,

[33:20]

there's a process through it all and he

[33:22]

taught me that process throughout my

[33:24]

career and we were able just to sharpen

[33:26]

up those tools, right? Like that's

[33:27]

really all it became.

[33:29]

Um because

[33:31]

you know, throughout my career, we ended

[33:33]

up ended up just trying to shave off

[33:34]

hundredths of a second. How do you shave

[33:36]

off 5/100 of a second? Mhm. Is it a

[33:39]

turn? Is it a kick? Is it a streamline?

[33:41]

What is it? Is it dive angle? Like what

[33:45]

what how do we do it, right? So, it's

[33:47]

trial and error. But it all started from

[33:49]

those years

[33:51]

um when we first started working

[33:52]

together. I mean, whether it was

[33:54]

mindset, whether it was goal setting,

[33:56]

whether it was preparation, routines,

[34:00]

um

[34:01]

you know, that's where stretching came

[34:02]

into play. All that stuff to to just get

[34:04]

your body prepared. Um my warm-ups were

[34:08]

the same at every single meet from the

[34:09]

time that I was

[34:11]

13 or 14 till the time I retired. It

[34:14]

didn't change.

[34:16]

8642 or 6442, every single warm-up. Who

[34:20]

was more ambitious, you or your coach?

[34:24]

Uh

[34:29]

you could probably say both of us at

[34:31]

different stages of my career.

[34:33]

>> [snorts]

[34:34]

>> Cuz I think leading up to 2008,

[34:37]

I don't think there was anybody more

[34:39]

ambitious than me.

[34:41]

Post like '04 or '08 to 2012, he was way

[34:46]

more ambitious. He wanted and I just

[34:48]

wanted nothing to do with the sport.

[34:50]

Um and then when I came back, I think we

[34:53]

both wanted it.

[34:54]

When I came back to finish in '16,

[34:57]

um

[34:58]

we were both equally as hungry and

[35:01]

wanting to do

[35:04]

or wanting to finish, I guess, what we

[35:06]

had started the right way.

[35:09]

Um because I mean, I I've said this and

[35:11]

I'll say it a thousand times more, like

[35:13]

there's not a coach on this planet that

[35:17]

could have

[35:19]

helped me,

[35:21]

coached me to be able to do what I was

[35:24]

able to do. Not a single person. I was

[35:26]

an [ __ ] I was a little [ __ ] dude

[35:28]

to coach, I know it. And he'd say it,

[35:30]

too. Um and I'd say the same about him.

[35:33]

But you know, I think again, like it's

[35:35]

the passion that we had and and we

[35:37]

learned a lot about each other through

[35:38]

the process, right? It was you know, he

[35:41]

had to adapt, I had to adapt cuz I

[35:43]

wasn't that 11-year-old kid that he

[35:44]

wanted to start working with when I was

[35:46]

30, Mhm. right? So, just that change

[35:49]

that we had to go through was was um was

[35:52]

important for us to have the the

[35:55]

relationship that we had for as long as

[35:57]

we had.

[35:58]

You your coach also said people around

[36:01]

you or everybody to not to say the word

[36:03]

Olympic. What was when was that? What

[36:05]

was that story?

[36:07]

I mean, my mom when I made the Olympic

[36:10]

team in 2000,

[36:11]

she like fully decorated the front yard

[36:14]

with like all these American flags and

[36:16]

like this, that, and the other. And my

[36:17]

mom was or my coach is

[36:20]

Bob goes, "This is the last time you're

[36:21]

ever going to do this.

[36:23]

Never again." Um

[36:25]

>> What? And and I think because it's like

[36:29]

I mean, I think looking back at it now,

[36:31]

I would say

[36:32]

because the goal wasn't just to make the

[36:34]

Olympic team. That wasn't the goal.

[36:36]

The goal is to win an Olympic gold

[36:38]

medal.

[36:39]

Not just be a part of the Olympic Games,

[36:42]

but win the Olympic Games. Be a champion

[36:45]

at the Olympic Games.

[36:47]

So, I think once you get caught up in

[36:49]

just making the Olympic team, then

[36:52]

sometimes you might slip and not pay

[36:54]

attention to the small details that are

[36:56]

going to help you be your best self at

[36:57]

the Olympic Games.

[36:59]

Right? Like I I mean, I see it in

[37:01]

I see it with athletes that have been on

[37:03]

Olympic teams with me,

[37:05]

right? Like they had this dream of

[37:06]

making an Olympic team. It's making and

[37:09]

that's it. Just getting there. It's not

[37:12]

actually

[37:14]

doing my best time at the Olympic Games

[37:17]

and potentially coming home with

[37:18]

hardware. That was my goal from day one

[37:21]

when I had my first Olympic race.

[37:23]

Get a gold. Yes, but it's

[37:26]

how do I get faster than my trials swim,

[37:29]

right? For me, I wanted to drop So, in

[37:32]

the US, we have Olympic trials and top

[37:35]

two people in each individual event get

[37:38]

to go. There's

[37:39]

over 2,000 swimmers that at that Olympic

[37:42]

trials. And a maximum of 52 people will

[37:45]

be on an Olympic team.

[37:47]

52 out of 2,000 plus.

[37:49]

And those 2,000 will also come from like

[37:51]

all over the place. Yeah, so like but

[37:53]

like you know, I think it it just like

[37:56]

got I just lost a train of thought. What

[37:57]

was I talking about?

[37:59]

You were talking about

[38:00]

your Olympic

[38:02]

>> Oh, yeah, yeah. Okay, now I got it. That

[38:03]

you always wanted just win the medal.

[38:05]

So, yeah, but like for me, like when I

[38:08]

made my first Olympic team in 2000, it

[38:10]

was about

[38:12]

dropping a second from Olympic trials to

[38:15]

the Olympic Games. Drop one second. If I

[38:18]

can do that, then I'm in

[38:21]

I'm in the realm of winning an Olympic

[38:23]

medal, right? So,

[38:26]

I dropped 98/100 of a second and I

[38:29]

missed a medal by less than 3/10.

[38:34]

And I had to wait another 4 years to

[38:36]

have another chance.

[38:38]

How did you feel like you were 15 when

[38:40]

you entered Olympics? You were the

[38:41]

youngest in the world to do that.

[38:43]

Youngest since 1932. And then

[38:46]

you

[38:48]

you end up coming fifth, sixth?

[38:51]

Fifth.

[38:52]

How did you feel?

[38:53]

First time, 15-year-old, youngest

[38:55]

person, fifth. Fifth.

[38:58]

Upset. [clears throat]

[38:59]

They gave me a piece of paper like you

[39:01]

have in front of you that says, "Good

[39:02]

job, you competed. You got fifth."

[39:05]

I don't want to get fifth. I'm not there

[39:06]

to get fifth.

[39:07]

I'm not.

[39:08]

I'm there to hear my national anthem

[39:09]

play. That's it. I mean, obviously, that

[39:12]

was a stretch for me at that time,

[39:14]

but I think having that opportunity of

[39:16]

getting fifth and representing my

[39:17]

country and

[39:19]

being at the biggest stage at such a

[39:21]

young age, I think just only prepared me

[39:23]

naturally for what was going to come.

[39:25]

But you messed up in your first Olympic

[39:27]

Games, right? I think you you forgot

[39:29]

your paper. Oh, yeah, I forgot my

[39:31]

credential. Well, I didn't forget my

[39:32]

credential, I took my roommate's

[39:34]

credential.

[39:35]

Um

[39:36]

I was roommates with another one of the

[39:37]

younger guys on the team and and uh

[39:41]

I we had our credentials just on like

[39:43]

the handle of a door

[39:44]

>> Mhm. and I just ended up grabbing his

[39:47]

instead of mine. We look nothing alike.

[39:49]

So,

[39:51]

uh, I ended up going to the pool and

[39:52]

they wouldn't let me in the pool. I

[39:54]

didn't have my credential.

[39:56]

I tried to go back to the village and I

[39:58]

couldn't get on the bus or get back in

[40:00]

the village because I didn't have a

[40:02]

photo of me on my credential.

[40:04]

>> [sighs and gasps]

[40:05]

>> So, that kind of delayed my warm-up and

[40:08]

my process of getting ready. Um, the

[40:12]

slightest bit and I mean I don't think

[40:14]

that threw me off. I mean because still

[40:16]

I didn't even tie my suit before the

[40:18]

race. My my strings of my suit were just

[40:20]

tucked into my like the top of my suit

[40:22]

which is I mean they're not going to

[40:24]

fall off. The suits are so tight and so

[40:26]

small. They are not going to fall off.

[40:28]

No shot. But I mean I just wasn't

[40:30]

prepared, you know, I think.

[40:33]

The biggest thing I learned from that

[40:34]

moment is is just understanding what

[40:36]

needs to take place

[40:38]

at the most pressured moment.

[40:40]

Right? You know, like for me, yeah, I've

[40:42]

gone to the Olympic trials, but I never

[40:45]

experienced what an Olympic Games was,

[40:47]

what a

[40:49]

swim meet on different soil feels like.

[40:53]

And especially in Australia where

[40:54]

swimming is the number one sport, right?

[40:56]

I mean the floor was shaking. I remember

[40:58]

it vividly. The floor was shaking

[41:00]

because there was an Australian in my

[41:01]

heat next to me who ended up getting

[41:03]

third. I mean like literally like the it

[41:05]

was it was vibrating. There was 18,000

[41:08]

people on one side

[41:10]

and then all the media and the

[41:11]

dignitaries are on the left.

[41:13]

And yeah, I mean like everything just

[41:15]

threw me off. Like looking back

[41:16]

>> was going on in your mind? I was a deer

[41:18]

in headlights. Just scared. Not really

[41:21]

knowing what the hell to do. But I knew

[41:23]

that I had to just get up on the block

[41:25]

and race.

[41:26]

Um, and that was something that, you

[41:27]

know, still to this day like I miss.

[41:30]

Like I I loved I loved competing. I

[41:33]

loved racing more than anything on the

[41:35]

planet. A chance for me to get up versus

[41:38]

the rest of the world or versus the

[41:40]

like my teammates, my competitors in the

[41:42]

US and have a chance to show who is the

[41:45]

best. Yes, every single time. Because

[41:47]

naturally like I'll always go to that

[41:49]

that next level

[41:52]

because I I

[41:53]

I don't like to lose. So, yeah, getting

[41:55]

fifth it was terrible. It sucked. But

[41:58]

again, like I truly believe

[42:00]

had I got a medal

[42:03]

2004 might have been different.

[42:05]

Right? You know, like

[42:07]

me falling short of a goal there

[42:11]

probably gave me more motivation to rip

[42:14]

into that next four years to make sure I

[42:17]

don't have that feeling again.

[42:20]

I don't have that sadness or that

[42:22]

disappointment again.

[42:24]

Yeah, it took me a lot to just to make

[42:26]

the Olympic team, but still like getting

[42:28]

there again, you got to wait four years.

[42:31]

I don't want to wait another four years.

[42:33]

So again, like I want everything to be

[42:34]

perfect when I have that chance. And I

[42:36]

think having 2000 I think gave me the

[42:38]

chance to do my trial run in 2004

[42:42]

to prepare for what was to come in 2008.

[42:45]

So when you

[42:47]

>> [clears throat]

[42:47]

>> when you came fifth with a paper, you

[42:49]

came home and now you're like I don't

[42:51]

even know where that paper is. What

[42:53]

whatever that thing was, right? Honestly

[42:54]

like it's just like like a

[42:56]

participation. Like it's just like here

[42:59]

and I'm like

[43:01]

I don't want it.

[43:02]

>> And then you came home and you're

[43:03]

thinking like 2004 is going to be my

[43:06]

year. I'm going to come back home with

[43:08]

gold medal.

[43:09]

If I could place a camera in your head,

[43:12]

what was going on in your head? Like

[43:14]

first day when you just came back from

[43:16]

Well, I knew

[43:18]

you know, like back to that story of

[43:19]

getting back into training the day

[43:20]

after, you know, that's something that

[43:23]

that naturally athletes don't do coming

[43:26]

off an Olympic Games, right? Like you

[43:29]

you kind of

[43:32]

take that four weeks like two to four

[43:36]

four to six weeks four to eight weeks

[43:39]

kind of just to recover to get back into

[43:41]

that cycle

[43:43]

um, to prepare for an Olympic Games, but

[43:45]

for me it was

[43:47]

right back into it because

[43:50]

it

[43:51]

in the sport of swimming when you miss

[43:53]

one day, it takes you two days to get

[43:55]

back to where you were.

[43:57]

So if you miss two months,

[44:00]

it's going to take you four months to

[44:01]

get back to where you were.

[44:03]

So for me from 2000 into 2001,

[44:08]

I didn't miss a step.

[44:10]

Right? I was right back into training. I

[44:12]

mean I went back into training. I mean I

[44:13]

would say I probably did a 5K over 5K. I

[44:17]

think I did like eight 200s or 10 200s

[44:20]

backstroke long course in lane one in

[44:24]

the Sydney warm-up pool the day after

[44:26]

the 200 fly in 2000.

[44:29]

And on the top of the paper it said WR

[44:32]

in six months at Nationals.

[44:35]

And I went to Nationals six months later

[44:36]

which are World Championship trials

[44:39]

um, for that following summer in Japan.

[44:44]

And the last 50

[44:47]

I came back on the existing world record

[44:49]

holder at the time Tom Malchow

[44:52]

and I ran him down with 10 15 m to go.

[44:56]

Um, and I broke the world record

[44:58]

1:54.92.

[45:01]

Um

[45:01]

and that kind of catapulted me into that

[45:03]

next summer. I won my first World

[45:05]

Championship at 16 and rebroke the world

[45:08]

record. Um, and then from that point

[45:10]

forward rebroke it in 2002, rebroke it

[45:13]

in 2003, rebroke it in 2004 when I won

[45:16]

the gold medal.

[45:17]

Um, it was just Did I?

[45:21]

No, I didn't break it. I didn't break it

[45:23]

in 2000. Not not winning the gold medal,

[45:25]

but I did break it in that year in that

[45:27]

calendar year. I just won on a tear.

[45:30]

Um, and I think kind of once I got that

[45:32]

taste of success, like I was saying

[45:34]

earlier, that was, you know, for me it

[45:36]

was what else can I do?

[45:39]

How much faster can I go? And I think

[45:41]

that's when we started expanding and

[45:43]

swimming different events. Right? Like I

[45:45]

was swimming the 200 IM. I started

[45:46]

swimming the 400 IM, the 100 fly, the

[45:48]

200 free, the 200 back.

[45:51]

Um

[45:52]

in 2008 I was the American record holder

[45:54]

in the 100 freestyle.

[45:56]

Um, I I just became super versatile and

[45:58]

that was something that we started back

[46:00]

early when I was working with Bob.

[46:03]

Um, cuz we had a goal back then of

[46:04]

trying to be

[46:06]

top 10 in the world in every single

[46:08]

stroke.

[46:10]

Butterfly, backstroke, breaststroke, and

[46:11]

freestyle.

[46:13]

You

[46:15]

But you took four days off from 2000 to

[46:17]

2004.

[46:19]

Pretty much yeah, because I had a wisdom

[46:20]

wisdom teeth.

[46:22]

>> [snorts]

[46:23]

>> And I think maybe like

[46:25]

I wouldn't even say I got sick. Like I I

[46:26]

mean even if I was sick, I was still in

[46:28]

the water. I was still training. Um But

[46:31]

you were so obsessed with training and

[46:32]

you believe that even one day off is

[46:34]

going to take you two days back. Why do

[46:37]

you even take four days off then? Well,

[46:39]

I had to. Uh, I mean I had to later in

[46:41]

my career for certain surgeries. I had

[46:43]

hand surgeries throughout my career.

[46:45]

Um,

[46:46]

but I think at that point it was if I'm

[46:49]

not taking the opportunity that I have,

[46:51]

then somebody else is going to take that

[46:52]

opportunity away from me.

[46:54]

And I want the opportunity to be mine.

[46:57]

So for me it was, you know, I think it

[47:00]

it was all about control. What can you

[47:01]

control? I can control not getting sick

[47:04]

by taking care of my body.

[47:06]

Right? So I think naturally over time I

[47:08]

learned how to take care of my body. But

[47:10]

did you feel guilty on the days when you

[47:12]

were off?

[47:14]

Do you feel bad like [ __ ] like

[47:16]

>> It sucks. Yeah, like I mean

[47:18]

it sucked because I was missing an

[47:19]

opportunity and a chance, but once

[47:22]

you're going through surgery, if you

[47:23]

have surgery, then it's kind of like

[47:26]

you need to give your body some kind of

[47:27]

recovery.

[47:29]

Um

[47:30]

I don't think it really hurt taking

[47:34]

those days off.

[47:35]

Um

[47:36]

because I think then after that I it was

[47:38]

like

[47:39]

I went on a six-year stretch where I

[47:41]

didn't miss a single day.

[47:43]

Um

[47:45]

and a lot of people say why and I say

[47:48]

why not. Right? There's no blueprint on

[47:50]

how to win eight gold medals. There's no

[47:52]

blueprint on how to break 39 world

[47:54]

records. There's no blueprint on how to

[47:55]

win 23 Olympic gold medals.

[47:58]

Um, the only thing you can do is trial

[47:59]

and error. Mhm.

[48:01]

>> Um,

[48:02]

for me, yeah, I mean I I would say I

[48:04]

became obsessed.

[48:06]

But I think it's that fine line between

[48:08]

obsession and passionate that I always

[48:09]

flirted with.

[48:11]

Um, and I I was over I was overly

[48:13]

passionate about trying to be the

[48:15]

absolute best. You know, for me

[48:18]

at such a young age I I I had a goal of

[48:21]

of doing something that no one has ever

[48:24]

done in the sport and also changing the

[48:26]

sport and taking it to a new level. So

[48:29]

there wasn't going to be anybody that

[48:30]

was going to stand in my way of doing

[48:32]

that. You know, I I looked up to Michael

[48:34]

Jordan and what he did, you know, on the

[48:36]

court of uh on the basketball court and

[48:38]

and, you know, no matter what he was

[48:40]

going through physically, mentally,

[48:42]

personally. Um, you know, when he was

[48:44]

out there performing, he left every

[48:46]

single ounce on the basketball court.

[48:48]

You know, he had the flu in the flu

[48:50]

game, still dropped what? 50, 40, 45?

[48:53]

Like Yeah, right. Like there was just no

[48:55]

excuses, right? So

[48:57]

um, for me every single day is an

[49:00]

opportunity to get better.

[49:02]

No matter how yesterday went. If you had

[49:04]

a bad day yesterday, today is a

[49:06]

different day. Period. That's it.

[49:08]

You can't live in the past and you can't

[49:09]

live in the future. The only thing you

[49:11]

can do is live in the present.

[49:12]

Walk me through four five

[49:14]

techniques or certain thing that you

[49:16]

would do in that five six years of

[49:18]

training where you were truly preparing

[49:20]

to win gold.

[49:22]

You know, I'll tell before you actually

[49:23]

go there, I'll tell you

[49:25]

one of the most watched Michael Phelps

[49:28]

video

[49:29]

is a clip by me which is funny on the

[49:31]

internet

[49:32]

>> [laughter]

[49:33]

>> because I was researching for this this

[49:35]

podcast and I I typed on YouTube the

[49:37]

most watched Michael Phelps clip and in

[49:39]

that clip I'm explaining

[49:41]

where in one interview he said

[49:43]

that there was there was a faith in your

[49:45]

life probably 6 7 years

[49:47]

where

[49:49]

somebody's asking you that what was the

[49:52]

what's the reason of your success? Why

[49:53]

do you win? And you say just train every

[49:55]

day. Yeah. And they say that's it.

[49:57]

>> the small things. Yeah, I mean

[49:58]

>> And then you said no, train every day.

[50:01]

>> Yeah.

[50:01]

No Christmas. Yeah, I try not to be.

[50:03]

>> party, nothing, no flu, just train every

[50:06]

day. And that that clip is doing really

[50:07]

well for some reason. But explain me

[50:10]

what happened in those 6 years.

[50:11]

I mean it's it's it basically really is

[50:14]

what can you control? What is in your

[50:16]

control every single day? And it's like

[50:19]

you're eating, you're sleeping, you're

[50:20]

drinking water, you're stretching if

[50:22]

you're sore, you're lifting if you're

[50:24]

trying to get stronger, you're working

[50:26]

on your endurance and staying in your

[50:27]

endurance level, working on heart rate

[50:29]

if that's what you're trying to improve.

[50:30]

There's so many different little small

[50:32]

things that you can do it depending on

[50:34]

what your goals are.

[50:35]

>> [gasps]

[50:36]

>> So for me it's it's how can I be

[50:38]

prepared every single day, right? So

[50:40]

like if I go back to that point, you

[50:42]

know, after the 2000 Olympic Games, like

[50:44]

it wasn't you know, it was probably 2002

[50:47]

2003 where

[50:49]

I started doing ice tubs.

[50:52]

Right? So it's recovery.

[50:54]

How can I how can I recover my body and

[50:56]

my mind every single day to make sure

[50:58]

that my body, if I'm treating it like a

[51:01]

Ferrari and I want it to go that fast

[51:03]

every single day

[51:06]

I have to recover. I have to treat my

[51:08]

body with with love, right? So if I'm

[51:10]

not eating, if I'm not stretching, if

[51:12]

I'm not drinking water, if I'm not

[51:13]

sleeping, if I'm not staying off my

[51:15]

feet, if I'm not all of these small

[51:18]

things, then I don't have a chance to be

[51:20]

my best during those two to four hours

[51:22]

when I'm in the pool every single day.

[51:24]

So it it became literally a full-time

[51:26]

job the age of 15 16 because I mean I

[51:30]

was professional at 15 or 16 years old.

[51:32]

So I treated it like a job. Um

[51:36]

everything I did was eat, sleep, and

[51:37]

swim. Sure, I was in school

[51:40]

um

[51:41]

until I I was in school through high

[51:43]

school and then

[51:44]

I took

[51:46]

6 months of credits at Michigan and

[51:48]

decided that I needed to focus on

[51:49]

swimming and that's what I did. Um but

[51:53]

yeah, I mean like it it was

[51:54]

>> your coach like created

[51:56]

>> like we'd start in the morning with a

[51:57]

training session

[51:59]

and then I would go and eat a bunch of

[52:02]

plates of food for breakfast just to

[52:05]

recover from the you know

[52:07]

7500 yard workout we just did.

[52:10]

Um go home, take a nap, wake up

[52:16]

eat something else

[52:18]

go back to the pool

[52:21]

train for 2 hours

[52:23]

go home

[52:25]

eat, sleep, wake up and do it all over

[52:27]

again. It literally like it became a job

[52:29]

at such a young age.

[52:31]

Every day for 6 years.

[52:32]

>> Every day.

[52:33]

Yeah. So

[52:35]

But your coach also created adversities

[52:37]

during the training. What was what was

[52:39]

it like? Why would you train like

[52:43]

like put

[52:44]

do it in the dark, do it without water,

[52:47]

do it

[52:47]

>> mean like there were so many different

[52:49]

things he tried to do just to or just to

[52:51]

mentally prepare us I think for things

[52:53]

that we were going to go through or

[52:55]

could potentially go through. Tell me

[52:57]

worst three.

[52:57]

>> Um I mean like he would break my goggles

[53:01]

or step on my goggles on purpose to

[53:03]

teach me to make sure I had a backup

[53:05]

pair.

[53:06]

And naturally in 2008 my goggles fill up

[53:09]

with water as soon as I dive in and

[53:12]

I had to revert back to a training a

[53:14]

training habit that I did

[53:17]

to help me count strokes to get through

[53:19]

that race. And naturally

[53:22]

I hit the wall at the right time, but I

[53:24]

was able to win and I was able to break

[53:26]

the world record, too. So

[53:28]

you know, I think the things that he did

[53:30]

like breaking my goggles or

[53:33]

um you know, like I I've had my suit rip

[53:36]

right? And and you know, during that

[53:39]

time if you're getting ready for an

[53:40]

Olympic final or a world championship

[53:42]

final and your suit rips

[53:45]

your emotions are going to change,

[53:46]

right? So I was able to then because of

[53:49]

what I went through, whether it's from

[53:51]

the breaking the goggles or or you know

[53:55]

going 10 workouts a week where I'm going

[53:58]

10,000 meters every single session and

[54:00]

going 100k bang bang bang just every

[54:03]

week. Um I think it it just gets you

[54:08]

relaxed in those super high-pressured

[54:11]

tense moments when all of these lights

[54:13]

are on and there's millions of people

[54:15]

staring at you. Oh, and by the way,

[54:17]

we're swimmers, so we're half naked. You

[54:19]

know, so it's like

[54:21]

>> [snorts]

[54:21]

>> um but but I think that's what it was.

[54:23]

Like he was just uh he was obsessed with

[54:25]

with being over-prepared. Um

[54:29]

you know

[54:30]

yeah, it's probably

[54:32]

a little psychotic in ways, but

[54:35]

um you know, looking back at it I

[54:37]

understand why he did what he did, why

[54:41]

he challenged me mentally

[54:44]

um

[54:46]

when things were uncomfortable, right?

[54:48]

Like you know, I remember having to swim

[54:49]

without goggles. It sucks.

[54:52]

Your eyes hurt, right? Like they burn

[54:54]

after swimming for 2 hours without

[54:56]

goggles. Try to swim a race without

[54:57]

goggles. No, it's not fun. Um

[55:01]

but after doing that like I I learned.

[55:05]

And naturally like my cap rips at the

[55:07]

Olympic final as I'm getting ready to

[55:09]

get up on the block for the 4 by 200

[55:12]

free relay.

[55:14]

I have to naturally calm myself.

[55:17]

I asked for

[55:19]

uh a teammate's cap

[55:21]

and I know that I can't represent his

[55:22]

brand and I know I can't represent his

[55:24]

name.

[55:26]

So I had to flip the cap inside out and

[55:28]

just swim with the black cap. But in

[55:30]

that moment

[55:31]

you're calm because you've prepared for

[55:33]

it, right? So like I mean even like

[55:35]

visualization, visualization is

[55:38]

something that that we did my whole my

[55:40]

whole entire career. Uh and it would be

[55:42]

three different ways how you want or you

[55:45]

would play three different tapes

[55:47]

how you want the race to go, how you

[55:49]

don't want the race to go

[55:52]

and what if, right? And how and and and

[55:55]

what if this happens in the race, how do

[55:56]

you how do you adapt? How do you adjust,

[55:59]

right? So it doesn't matter what

[56:00]

happens. Whenever I get there, I'm

[56:01]

prepared. If I lose, if my cap rips, my

[56:04]

goggles break, they fill up with water,

[56:06]

it doesn't matter because my emotions

[56:08]

will stay in check.

[56:10]

And if you can handle your emotions in

[56:11]

the most tense pressured situations,

[56:13]

then you're able to be the best version

[56:15]

of you, right? So like you know, going

[56:17]

back to 2008, I think it was you know,

[56:19]

for me I think it was you know, lack of

[56:21]

better terms, it was like I

[56:22]

I was in the matrix.

[56:24]

Like literally time slowed down. Like I

[56:26]

was just like, all right, cool. Like

[56:28]

I'm more prepared. Let's go.

[56:33]

But it's preparation. And it's again,

[56:35]

yeah, had I not done those 6 years, I

[56:37]

probably don't get the exact results

[56:39]

that I had. You know, like we always

[56:41]

this is something that that um

[56:44]

I always hope that people can relate to,

[56:46]

but um when you're trying to accomplish

[56:49]

a goal

[56:51]

you know, obviously it's not going to

[56:52]

happen like that. It's not going to

[56:53]

happen overnight.

[56:55]

There has to be like little short

[56:57]

in-term goals through that process to

[57:00]

reach the big goal.

[57:01]

So through that process my coach and I

[57:03]

would always say

[57:05]

you know

[57:06]

coming to practice

[57:08]

that's a deposit into the bank.

[57:10]

Right? And 4 years from now, I hope our

[57:13]

bank account is massive

[57:15]

because when we go to the Olympic Games,

[57:18]

I want to withdraw that whole entire

[57:20]

account and just put it on the table and

[57:22]

say let's go.

[57:23]

Right? So it's it's again, it's just a

[57:24]

way of looking at preparation and what

[57:26]

you're doing every single day

[57:28]

because greatness is really it's just a

[57:29]

bunch of small things that are done well

[57:31]

stacked upon

[57:32]

on top of each other. That's it. It's

[57:34]

really not that hard. What You said he

[57:37]

was almost psychotic. What's the most

[57:38]

psychotic thing he did?

[57:41]

>> [sighs]

[57:41]

>> I mean but him [clears throat] and I

[57:43]

have gotten in so many different

[57:44]

arguments and and

[57:48]

I mean it's almost like we were like a

[57:50]

married couple, you know, just like

[57:51]

fighting over like the smallest little

[57:53]

things. Like it's crazy. Um

[57:57]

I mean

[57:58]

>> [sighs]

[57:59]

>> I remember there was a time

[58:01]

uh I forget how old I was, but I mean

[58:04]

like I said, I was a little [ __ ]

[58:07]

And we were doing 400s free long course

[58:12]

and I was supposed to be going like

[58:15]

under 425 or around like 420

[58:18]

and

[58:20]

uh

[58:21]

I I wasn't. I was just going slower and

[58:23]

just pissing him off on purpose.

[58:25]

Um and he was like, you're going to go

[58:28]

you're going to go these times or we're

[58:29]

going to start over.

[58:31]

And I had like 10 or 15 seconds before

[58:33]

the timer went off where we were about

[58:35]

to do the next repeat. And I looked at

[58:37]

the clock and I just didn't say

[58:39]

anything. And right as I was getting

[58:41]

ready to push off I just said, no.

[58:44]

I went back under the water

[58:45]

>> [snorts]

[58:46]

>> and naturally when I was training I

[58:48]

always had to bilateral breathe. I had

[58:49]

to breathe on both sides.

[58:51]

Um so he was on my left side. I'd have

[58:54]

to go three right, three left.

[58:57]

So I ended up switching it that day cuz

[58:59]

I went three on my right

[59:02]

and then I went to my left and saw him

[59:04]

the first time and I was like, [ __ ]

[59:05]

that, I ain't going back to that side. I

[59:07]

[laughter] just kept breathing to my

[59:08]

right. I'll never forget he came down to

[59:11]

the other end and was chasing, throwing

[59:13]

his arms up in the air, whistling

[59:14]

whistling like crazy.

[59:16]

And he threw a bunch of kickboards and

[59:18]

pull buoys down on top of me as I was

[59:20]

pulling or as I was flip turning. I just

[59:22]

kept swimming.

[59:24]

I just kept swimming.

[59:26]

Um

[59:26]

we had a talk shortly after that.

[59:28]

>> [laughter]

[59:29]

>> Uh we both expressed some frustration,

[59:31]

but

[59:32]

um you know, again, I think it was just

[59:34]

the passion that we both had and and

[59:37]

I wouldn't change it because, you know,

[59:39]

I'm sure I did some things that that

[59:42]

pissed him off and frustrated him

[59:44]

throughout our time together and

[59:46]

likewise, there were some things that he

[59:48]

did that pissed me off and and

[59:52]

you know,

[59:53]

if you asked me if I would change

[59:55]

anything that I did or do it differently

[59:58]

in any way, shape, or form, I wouldn't.

[60:00]

Um not at all. You know, I think it's

[60:02]

it's kind of allowed me to

[60:06]

be the person who I am now and feel

[60:07]

comfortable in my own skin. So,

[60:10]

and I was able to learn a lot through

[60:13]

again, the craziness that we went

[60:14]

through. I mean,

[60:15]

I've thrown water bottles at him. Like,

[60:18]

it's it's been bad. Like, I I'm really

[60:20]

sorry, Grandpa.

[60:22]

Sorry I'm bringing this all out. People

[60:24]

have seen videos of it, though.

[60:26]

Cuz that was on a video. That was on a

[60:28]

documentary that we did.

[60:31]

No, it's just it it's it's the passion

[60:34]

and again, it's the frustration because

[60:37]

for us, we were trying to work in

[60:40]

hundreds of a second, right? You know,

[60:41]

like two of my Olympic medals were won

[60:43]

combined by 5/100 of a second.

[60:47]

Right? I won the 2004 100 fly by 4/100

[60:50]

and the 2008 100 fly by a 100.

[60:53]

Right place at the right time? Yeah, for

[60:55]

sure, but it's also hitting the wall at

[60:57]

the right place at the right time with

[60:58]

the right amount of force, momentum, and

[61:00]

speed, but it's also being able to judge

[61:03]

when to go all out and when not over

[61:05]

swim a race and this, that, and the

[61:07]

other. So, again, it's like everything

[61:09]

we did, it was it was a full-blown chess

[61:11]

match.

[61:13]

And we were able to

[61:15]

damn near perfect it. Or I only I broke

[61:18]

seven world records and won eight gold

[61:20]

medals. It should have been eight for

[61:21]

eight in '08, but it was eight for seven

[61:24]

in '08. So,

[61:27]

but yeah, it was it was awesome. And I

[61:29]

think it again, like having the

[61:31]

opportunities that I had later in life,

[61:33]

whether it's '04, '12, or '16, I don't

[61:35]

like talking about '12 cuz I hate that

[61:36]

Olympics cuz I didn't swim very well. Um

[61:39]

but

[61:40]

it wouldn't have been possible without

[61:42]

those things that I did back in the

[61:44]

early 2000s, right? Like, you know, from

[61:47]

'04 or 2000 to '04 and then that

[61:50]

transition from '04 to '08 when we were

[61:52]

at University of Michigan and and

[61:55]

you know, we assembled the training

[61:56]

group that we had there with I mean,

[61:58]

that was

[61:59]

one of the most iconic training groups,

[62:01]

you know, in my opinion,

[62:03]

that we've had. There was every single

[62:05]

day, there was there was a handful of

[62:07]

the guys that were just going at each

[62:09]

other.

[62:10]

And by by saying at each other, it was

[62:12]

just competition after competition after

[62:14]

competition every single stroke that you

[62:17]

took during practice. And it was it was

[62:19]

something that I just thrived from. I

[62:21]

loved being in that kind of environment.

[62:23]

You know what I really love about you

[62:25]

and your coach partnership, the more I

[62:26]

read about it. I'll tell you what I

[62:28]

really love about you and your coach.

[62:30]

You both kept each other on very high

[62:32]

standards. There was an incident I was

[62:34]

reading where he didn't show up because

[62:37]

he was sick and you texted him that

[62:40]

why would I have a coach if I have to

[62:42]

coach myself?

[62:43]

>> [laughter]

[62:44]

>> So, I said like, I was ruthless. Like, I

[62:47]

was absolutely ruthless. I was such a

[62:49]

jerk.

[62:51]

But it was like any any time that I had

[62:53]

the chance to come back at him, I took

[62:56]

it. Um and I was like I remember that. I

[62:59]

was like, why the hell am I swimming for

[63:00]

somebody else? Like, you're my coach.

[63:02]

Like, if you're not here, why the [ __ ]

[63:04]

am I here? I think I literally said

[63:06]

that. Um also to the point because I I

[63:09]

knew it would piss him off. Like there

[63:12]

would be times where I would just say

[63:14]

things on purpose to

[63:16]

make him mad.

[63:18]

Because it was fun and I just enjoyed

[63:19]

it.

[63:20]

I enjoyed getting under his skin.

[63:24]

And I also knew that if I did ever want

[63:27]

to get kicked out

[63:28]

and I didn't [clears throat] like the

[63:29]

practice that

[63:30]

I could make him pissed off and say

[63:32]

something and

[63:34]

he would

[63:35]

he would he would toss me. So,

[63:38]

there weren't many times like that. But

[63:40]

yeah, I mean, I there I knew what to say

[63:44]

um

[63:46]

to get a reaction.

[63:48]

And that's what I wanted. I wanted a

[63:49]

reaction.

[63:51]

And one thing that you just mentioned

[63:53]

and your coach, you guys did almost

[63:55]

every day. There was a video tape

[63:56]

technique, the visualization in your

[63:58]

head.

[63:59]

Walk me through it. If somebody who's

[64:02]

watching this right now

[64:05]

someone like me who wants to become an

[64:06]

absolute champion in whatever they're

[64:08]

doing.

[64:09]

What [clears throat] is that

[64:09]

visualization technique? Like, what

[64:11]

would you do

[64:12]

sitting down in your room every day? I

[64:14]

would just lay down. It would be like

[64:18]

you know, like if I'm getting ready to

[64:19]

go to practice or, you know, if I just

[64:22]

have like 30 minutes to lay down on the

[64:23]

couch or lay down on my bed and just

[64:25]

visualize, it would just be So, what are

[64:28]

you thinking? Let's say just walk me

[64:29]

around. Yeah, yeah. It would be like

[64:30]

What's going on in your head right now?

[64:32]

Like in a perfect situation, like

[64:34]

say I'm swimming the 200 butterfly. If

[64:36]

I'm swimming the 200 butterfly, like

[64:38]

what does a perfect race look like? A

[64:40]

perfect race looks like a great start,

[64:42]

good entry,

[64:44]

eight to 10 dolphin kicks, pop up right

[64:46]

before 15 m, take 16 to 17 strokes that

[64:49]

first 50, hit the wall with speed and

[64:52]

momentum on a full stroke, um get out

[64:56]

into open water,

[64:58]

kind of make the the rest of the

[65:00]

competitors deal with my wake and my

[65:03]

waves and make them fight through that

[65:04]

so it's harder for them and they have to

[65:06]

use more energy. Um

[65:09]

hitting the wall, breaking a world

[65:11]

record,

[65:12]

how the race doesn't or, you know, yeah,

[65:14]

I mean, like the perfect scenario. Like,

[65:16]

no matter what it is. Are you going in

[65:18]

for a work pitch and you're trying to

[65:20]

get your company to or you're trying to

[65:22]

get another company to sign your

[65:23]

company? Yeah, then it's a home run.

[65:26]

Like the, you know, how like the perfect

[65:28]

video is your vision of it going

[65:30]

perfectly how you want it to, how you

[65:33]

dream it to be. How you don't want it to

[65:36]

go is

[65:37]

>> [snorts]

[65:38]

>> you get touched out by a 100th of a

[65:41]

second because you screwed up a wall or

[65:45]

you misjudged a turn or

[65:48]

you didn't have the right start or your

[65:51]

preparation wasn't good. Your warm-up

[65:54]

wasn't good. Right? Like, all of those

[65:56]

things. So, it's trying to almost really

[65:59]

make sure your ducks are in a in a line

[66:01]

and

[66:02]

every little small piece of that puzzle

[66:04]

is fit into the right spot. And then how

[66:08]

the race could go would be

[66:11]

what if I

[66:14]

wake up and they don't like all of a

[66:17]

sudden they don't have the same food

[66:19]

that I've been eating every other day.

[66:21]

Or what if I wake up 20 minutes late? Or

[66:24]

what if my suit rips? Or what if my cap

[66:26]

rips? Or

[66:28]

what if I get sick? Right? All of these

[66:31]

things

[66:32]

are already played out. So, once I get

[66:35]

to the Olympics or once I get to World

[66:38]

Championships,

[66:39]

if it does happen, I'm like, all right,

[66:41]

cool. If I get sick, Doc, what do I need

[66:44]

to do? Right? Like, we got team doctor.

[66:46]

Doctor, what do I need to do to make

[66:47]

sure I can get out there to compete and

[66:49]

be my best? Um

[66:51]

all of those Yeah, I mean, it's again,

[66:53]

it's it's another form of preparation

[66:55]

because I feel like if you get into a

[66:58]

situation that you're not prepared for

[67:01]

or you haven't thought of, then you're

[67:02]

not able to be your best self.

[67:04]

So, I guess in a long way of saying it,

[67:06]

it's controlling the controllables.

[67:09]

You know, like controlling the

[67:10]

controllables is something that that a

[67:12]

dear friend of mine, Greg Harden, taught

[67:14]

me

[67:15]

back in 2004.

[67:17]

And it it's really just such an easy

[67:20]

quote and a powerful quote because you

[67:22]

can really relate it to so many things

[67:24]

in life. Right? Like

[67:26]

if I'm thirsty, right? You saw my water

[67:28]

just explode cuz I was trying to break

[67:29]

the ice. So, I'm going to have a drink

[67:30]

of water. Like, if I'm tired, I'm going

[67:32]

to go take a nap or I'm going to go to

[67:33]

bed earlier tonight than I did last

[67:35]

night. It's literally that simple.

[67:37]

What do you need to get ready for a

[67:38]

meeting? X, Y, and Z. You have a list.

[67:41]

Do those three things. If you don't do

[67:42]

those three things, you're not fully

[67:43]

prepared. You're going to go to that

[67:44]

meeting and you're going to be like,

[67:45]

"Ah, [ __ ] I wish I would have done

[67:47]

that." Well, tough break cuz you didn't.

[67:49]

Right? So, and if you don't learn from

[67:51]

doing it that way

[67:53]

to get ready for the next time, then

[67:54]

what are you doing?

[67:56]

Right? So, it's it's it's just it's

[67:58]

different ways to look at preparation.

[68:00]

And for me, again, like I became

[68:01]

obsessed with it because

[68:03]

I wanted to have the opportunity to be

[68:05]

great. I didn't want anybody else to

[68:06]

take that opportunity from me. I wanted

[68:08]

to earn it. So, I prepared and I worked

[68:11]

harder than anybody else did. Period.

[68:14]

But would you play every day in your

[68:16]

head that you're winning the perfect

[68:19]

race? No, that's just I mean, that's

[68:21]

just like

[68:22]

that's just for big meets. Like, I'm

[68:24]

just doing I'm just visualizing for big

[68:26]

meets. I'm not doing it for every day.

[68:28]

Like

[68:30]

like I'm not laying in bed tonight and

[68:31]

being like,

[68:32]

"What's a perfect day tomorrow? Not

[68:34]

tomorrow. Should I go tomorrow? What's

[68:36]

Like, no. Like, it's like it's more it's

[68:39]

more just like 6 months before a race,

[68:41]

before a big meet. Like

[68:44]

you know, just kind of getting ready

[68:45]

into that mindset because when that

[68:47]

moment comes, again, like, yeah, World

[68:49]

Championships, you get a little bit more

[68:51]

often than the Olympic Games, but the

[68:52]

Olympic Games, you got to wait 4 years.

[68:55]

You know how long 4 years is to just

[68:57]

have a chance to go compete and

[68:58]

represent your country the Olympic

[69:00]

stage? Like, it sucks. It's awful. But

[69:03]

like, that's what I'm saying. Like, if

[69:04]

you're not prepared, somebody else is.

[69:07]

Especially at that level.

[69:09]

Right?

[69:10]

Cuz people do obsess. Right? And winning

[69:12]

a gold medal, it's what?

[69:14]

To have the chance Well,

[69:16]

to win a gold medal, it's less than 1%

[69:18]

of 1%.

[69:20]

>> [snorts]

[69:23]

>> So,

[69:24]

but for 6 months, you would play the

[69:26]

perfect perfect hiccups, the failure

[69:28]

every day in your head.

[69:31]

There was an incident where you won a

[69:33]

gold even when your goggles almost broke

[69:37]

like they were what there was water

[69:38]

inside your goggles.

[69:40]

You couldn't see there was blackout and

[69:41]

you still won. How many times did you

[69:43]

play that in your head or how many times

[69:45]

did you practice with broken goggles

[69:47]

before even you actually get there?

[69:48]

Well, I think you know when my coach

[69:50]

broke my goggles and I had to swim a

[69:51]

race without having a pair of goggles. I

[69:53]

think taught me to always have a backup

[69:55]

pair and

[69:57]

when that happened I was just like oh

[69:59]

[ __ ] Okay, I guess

[70:01]

I got to figure out what I'm going to do

[70:03]

and I think for me at that time

[70:06]

I reverted back to what I did in

[70:08]

training because

[70:11]

every single one of my 200s throughout

[70:13]

my career every one of my 200

[70:14]

butterflies throughout my career when I

[70:16]

was competing first second third and

[70:18]

fourth 50 all were the same strokes.

[70:22]

16 17 18 and then 19 or 20

[70:26]

depending on how many kicks I took off

[70:27]

the last one.

[70:29]

So I was like all right cool. I'm just

[70:30]

going to revert back to what I do

[70:32]

because in training we do these things

[70:33]

called stroke and time 50s.

[70:36]

So if you're trying to go 30 seconds

[70:38]

then you take 20 strokes.

[70:40]

29 19 28 18 27 17

[70:46]

So for me naturally I just started

[70:48]

counting my strokes after the first well

[70:50]

I guess right when I dove in because I

[70:53]

realized

[70:54]

>> [clears throat]

[70:54]

>> I started counting my strokes as soon as

[70:56]

I dove in because I realized that they

[70:59]

weren't going to stop leaking and also I

[71:02]

was unable to take my goggles off.

[71:05]

Because

[71:07]

when I would swim I would wear my

[71:10]

goggles

[71:11]

one cap

[71:14]

two cap another cap so I couldn't rip

[71:17]

all of it off and swim with no cap or

[71:20]

goggles it would just it would it just

[71:22]

wouldn't be good. So I ended up counting

[71:24]

my strokes at the first wall 16 second

[71:27]

wall 17 third wall 18 fourth wall is 19

[71:30]

or 20 I don't remember. Um but ended up

[71:33]

yeah winning a gold medal breaking a

[71:35]

world record

[71:37]

um and you can go back and look at that

[71:38]

video. I I was

[71:40]

honestly pissed

[71:42]

after I saw the time. Why?

[71:44]

I could have gone faster. I should have

[71:46]

gone faster.

[71:47]

I I think I could have gone at least a

[71:49]

half a second faster than that for sure

[71:51]

100% just because of the goggles. Yeah.

[71:54]

I was I was firing on all cylinders

[71:56]

going into that Olympic Games. But why

[71:58]

would you be pissed?

[72:00]

When you broke a world record you won

[72:02]

the gold.

[72:03]

I wanted to go faster.

[72:07]

That's me. Like honestly I didn't hit

[72:09]

the goal that I wanted right? The goal

[72:11]

the goal is hitting a certain time. It's

[72:14]

not winning it's not winning a gold

[72:15]

medal because I know if I get to a

[72:17]

certain time I'm the only one that's

[72:20]

thinking about doing it.

[72:21]

I'm the only one that's doing stuff

[72:23]

every single day to get there. So if I

[72:24]

hit that time

[72:26]

the rest will take care of itself.

[72:28]

Nobody else nobody else will win that

[72:30]

gold medal if I do that time. And what

[72:33]

was going on in your head

[72:35]

at that microsecond when you knew that

[72:36]

goggles have

[72:39]

Did you did you go like oh [ __ ] what do

[72:43]

>> nothing I can do.

[72:43]

I need to do?

[72:44]

There's nothing I could do at that

[72:45]

point. I couldn't

[72:47]

that was out of my control. The only

[72:50]

thing I could do was what was in my

[72:52]

control and that was try to win the race

[72:53]

with

[72:55]

what was at hand.

[72:57]

I knew I was the most prepared person

[72:58]

there. I just had to worry about my

[72:59]

stroke. I had to worry about counting my

[73:01]

strokes. That's all I did.

[73:03]

16

[73:05]

17

[73:06]

18 and then bang 19 20

[73:10]

ripped off and I was like

[73:12]

151 5

[73:15]

>> [snorts]

[73:15]

>> I should have been 150 point.

[73:17]

Should be one 150 for sure.

[73:20]

I thought honestly like I I truly

[73:22]

thought I could break 150 in the 200

[73:24]

butterfly at some point in my career.

[73:27]

I only went 151.

[73:29]

I think I could have gone a second and a

[73:30]

half faster at some point in my career.

[73:34]

That's insane even after breaking a

[73:36]

world record or winning gold you would

[73:39]

not be happy about it.

[73:41]

But it's the goals right? Like it's you

[73:43]

know like

[73:45]

like for me like I I just held myself to

[73:48]

such a high standard and I put the most

[73:51]

pressure on myself. Like didn't matter

[73:53]

what everybody else was saying or doing.

[73:56]

The the

[73:57]

the one person who put the most amount

[73:59]

of pressure on me was me.

[74:02]

Because it is in my control right? I'm

[74:05]

not going to be able to skip two weeks a

[74:07]

month six weeks eight weeks and just

[74:10]

wake up one day and break a world

[74:11]

record.

[74:12]

You have to do the work. If you're not

[74:13]

doing the work then skip it.

[74:16]

Do something else.

[74:18]

Tell me

[74:20]

Tell me about that phase which a lot of

[74:23]

people call it the alien phase.

[74:25]

>> [laughter]

[74:26]

>> Which was year 2008 Beijing where you

[74:29]

won eight gold medals. You competed

[74:31]

in eight races

[74:33]

and you won all of them.

[74:35]

There's never been an athlete in the

[74:38]

world till now who has ever gone that

[74:41]

far and have won so many medals.

[74:43]

What was what was that phase like that

[74:45]

alien phase where everything you touch

[74:47]

you would turn it into gold?

[74:49]

I mean yeah during those games and like

[74:52]

I guess from like 07 08 like those two

[74:56]

years like I

[74:58]

I truly felt I felt unbeatable in the

[75:01]

pool. I really did. Um What did you feel

[75:04]

like? Unbeatable. Like I literally felt

[75:06]

like there wasn't a single soul on the

[75:08]

planet that could touch me that could

[75:10]

beat me.

[75:11]

Um I just felt like I was super

[75:13]

prepared.

[75:14]

Um you know everyone says it's like that

[75:16]

10,000 hour mark right? Like I think

[75:18]

2007 was my 10,000 hour mark. Um

[75:24]

and then it just it just kept getting

[75:25]

better. I mean 2007 those world

[75:27]

championships in Melbourne were I mean

[75:30]

I might even say performance wise were

[75:32]

better than what they were in in in

[75:34]

Beijing.

[75:35]

Um I mean the times that I did the

[75:37]

amount that I was breaking world records

[75:39]

by I mean they were body lengths behind

[75:41]

me. Um

[75:44]

Yeah I mean again it's just it's the

[75:45]

preparation that I had done years prior

[75:48]

that were showing.

[75:50]

That's all it was it's right? Like you

[75:52]

know if you go out and buy a piece of

[75:54]

property and you want to build a house

[75:56]

you can't snap the fingers right? You

[75:58]

just got to put it up one brick at a

[75:59]

time and that's what I did one day at a

[76:01]

time leading up to that point. You know

[76:03]

2004 was you know obviously a learning

[76:06]

process for me be yeah it was a great

[76:08]

experience winning six gold medals. Um

[76:11]

but I think

[76:13]

it truly just prepared me for what was

[76:15]

coming in 2008

[76:17]

to make sure that I was overly prepared

[76:20]

obsessively prepared for every small

[76:23]

detail.

[76:24]

Um because I knew how hard it was going

[76:26]

to be to win seven let alone eight. What

[76:29]

was different about that phase?

[76:35]

Uh

[76:35]

I mean coming off of 2004 obviously you

[76:39]

know it was my first gold medal right?

[76:42]

So

[76:43]

you know

[76:44]

18 19 years of dreaming of winning a

[76:47]

gold medal and it happens.

[76:49]

Um you win a couple of them.

[76:52]

You get off of that Olympic Games and

[76:54]

then literally every headline is Michael

[76:56]

Phelps fails because he doesn't win

[76:59]

seven gold medals and I'm like

[77:01]

>> [laughter]

[77:01]

>> what are you talking about? Like this is

[77:02]

a joke.

[77:04]

Um honestly though like

[77:05]

uh you know to just have the chance to

[77:09]

win one was incredible but you know

[77:11]

winning six in an Olympics and then

[77:13]

winning eight in the next Olympics. Um

[77:17]

Yeah I was I I was just prepared. You

[77:18]

know like I mean even even going back to

[77:21]

like the the the quote that Ian Thorpe

[77:23]

said going into 2008. He said no one

[77:26]

will ever gold medals in an Olympic

[77:28]

Games. Like that for me is motivation.

[77:30]

Right? Like everything I did during that

[77:33]

time

[77:35]

you know truly was about trying to be as

[77:37]

perfect as I could perfect was going

[77:40]

eight eight for eight.

[77:42]

Um but again like I was competing

[77:47]

against

[77:48]

somebody who was pretty much fresh

[77:51]

every single time right? Like people go

[77:53]

to the Olympics and they might swim one

[77:54]

or two races. Exactly.

[77:56]

>> Right? And I'm swimming a total of 17

[78:00]

races 18 races in

[78:02]

eight days. Yeah that was like insane

[78:05]

right? That that's fascinating. Like

[78:08]

it's a full training week. Like during

[78:09]

that week with all of the warm-ups

[78:12]

warm-downs so that's that's 2000 2000

[78:16]

meters for warm-up 2500 meters for

[78:19]

warm-up 2000 meters for warm-down is

[78:21]

doing it twice a day plus all the

[78:23]

racing. I mean I'm swimming I was

[78:26]

swimming like 60,000 meters during a

[78:28]

competition week.

[78:30]

There are people that don't even train

[78:32]

60,000 65,000 yards or meters a week

[78:37]

period.

[78:38]

So again like

[78:41]

everything I did from 2000

[78:45]

to the first step I got with Bob from

[78:47]

him

[78:48]

destroying my strokes and recreating

[78:50]

them into what they were throughout my

[78:52]

whole entire career

[78:54]

got me to that point.

[78:56]

>> [snorts]

[78:56]

>> So

[78:57]

you started competing on 10th August and

[79:00]

then 10 11 12 13 there was only like one

[79:02]

day I think 15th August was off. I had a

[79:05]

morning off.

[79:05]

>> Yeah. I had a morning or I had a a

[79:08]

morning or an afternoon cuz the finals

[79:10]

were in the morning for that Olympics

[79:13]

where typically they're in the afternoon

[79:15]

or night time.

[79:16]

Uh I had one I typically had one session

[79:19]

off every every uh

[79:22]

every major major competition. Uh Um

[79:25]

and and by that point I needed it. Yeah.

[79:28]

[laughter] I was so tired by the end of

[79:30]

those meets, man.

[79:32]

Um

[79:33]

You slept Did you sleep the whole day

[79:34]

like on 15 when you got got an off

[79:36]

between those events?

[79:37]

>> Uh no, like during an off day I would

[79:39]

wake up normal time.

[79:41]

Uh I would I would stay on that

[79:43]

schedule, that routine. I would wake up

[79:46]

and I would have like a morning like a

[79:47]

splash.

[79:48]

And then I literally would do

[79:51]

800 to 1,000, like not much. I was

[79:53]

supposed to do more, but I never did. Um

[79:57]

and I would just go and just kind of

[79:59]

feel I'm just feel how I was feeling,

[80:02]

see if I needed to get a little massage

[80:04]

or whatever I needed to stretch or

[80:06]

something before the finals. Um

[80:09]

go have lunch,

[80:12]

watch a movie,

[80:13]

play some games. I don't know. Like we

[80:15]

were always playing spades or risk,

[80:18]

hearts.

[80:19]

Um some kind of game to kill time, but

[80:22]

yeah, I mean it was it was a pretty

[80:23]

normal day. I wouldn't really I wouldn't

[80:25]

think about much and by the time the

[80:28]

afternoon came we we always have a team

[80:30]

meeting before we would go over to the

[80:33]

final session.

[80:35]

And you know, from the team meeting it

[80:37]

was

[80:39]

headphones go on.

[80:41]

No one talks to me or I don't talk to

[80:43]

anybody. They might talk to me, but I I

[80:45]

ignore absolutely every noise. Mhm. Get

[80:48]

to the pool about 2 hours before my

[80:50]

race, stretch for about half hour, dive

[80:53]

in the warm-up pool 90 minutes before my

[80:54]

race, and then do my warm-up, get out,

[80:59]

dry off, put warm clothes on 30 minutes

[81:02]

before my race, get my racing suit on,

[81:04]

jump back in the pool for 3 to 500, just

[81:07]

kind of stroke play, kind of feel my

[81:09]

body, make sure everything's going, get

[81:11]

out, walk up for the race 15-20 minutes

[81:13]

beforehand, and then bang, that's it.

[81:16]

You get either

[81:17]

I I mean my races were anywhere from

[81:22]

47 seconds to

[81:27]

4 minutes and 3 seconds.

[81:31]

That's it.

[81:33]

Did you ever feel like taking an off in

[81:35]

that alien phase? Taking off? Yeah. Like

[81:38]

an off day of training or maybe just you

[81:40]

didn't feel like like today is not the

[81:42]

day. I'm sure there must have been at

[81:44]

least one day where you must have been

[81:45]

>> mean, yeah, but I think the goals that I

[81:47]

had were were

[81:50]

too big. They were big enough where I

[81:52]

couldn't take a day off. I couldn't.

[81:54]

What did you tell yourself on the day

[81:56]

when you were feeling sick and you

[81:57]

didn't want to get out of bed?

[81:58]

>> I mean, for me like when I when I would

[82:00]

get out of bed, the first things I see

[82:01]

are my goal sheets.

[82:03]

Like literally first thing I wake up,

[82:05]

they're on my desk, they're on my

[82:06]

bedside table because I you know, for me

[82:09]

I want to know why I'm waking up. What

[82:11]

is the purpose of that day? Yeah, I

[82:13]

might feel like [ __ ] but if I can get

[82:15]

10% if I can get 20% if I can get 50%

[82:18]

out of that day,

[82:20]

then isn't that better than getting

[82:22]

zero? Yeah. You know? Like as long as

[82:24]

you're not taking a step backwards.

[82:27]

Cuz if you are, try to flip that car

[82:29]

around and go a different direction,

[82:30]

right? Try something different.

[82:33]

Um because taking steps back just it it

[82:35]

it crushes you. Absolutely crushes you.

[82:37]

So what does a goal sheet of an of a

[82:39]

world champion looks like? I mean, for

[82:41]

me it was

[82:42]

they were bro- all of my times were

[82:44]

broken down into 50s, right? So like

[82:48]

if I'm swimming a 100, it's broken down

[82:50]

the first 50 and the second 50, and then

[82:52]

it has my total time. They're they're

[82:54]

down to the hundredth of a second. Every

[82:58]

day you would have this? Well, I just

[82:59]

see like I see So I would have

[83:02]

short-term goals and long-term goals.

[83:04]

Long-term goals are

[83:06]

what times do I want to swim at the

[83:08]

Olympic Games or World Championships?

[83:11]

And then the short-term goals are what

[83:13]

times do I need to hit this season in

[83:15]

order to give me a chance at the end of

[83:17]

the season to rip 154 in the 200 IM or

[83:21]

155 in the 200 IM back there.

[83:23]

Um

[83:25]

And then yeah, it's just I mean

[83:28]

and then I basically I I I

[83:30]

I wrote I I would write down basically

[83:32]

100, 200 free.

[83:34]

He would always make me do the mile at

[83:36]

least once a year. I [ __ ] hated the

[83:38]

mile.

[83:39]

Uh

[83:40]

100, 200 back, 100, 200 fly, 200, 400 IM

[83:43]

cuz I'd swim all of those races

[83:45]

throughout the year. And I'd sometimes

[83:47]

swim a breaststroke race, too.

[83:49]

Um

[83:50]

But yeah, I mean like I think for me,

[83:53]

you know, for the 400 IM I knew that I

[83:55]

had to I knew that they like my strokes

[83:59]

had to be at a certain level in order to

[84:01]

do the times that I needed to do in the

[84:03]

400 IM, right? To be able to add those

[84:05]

times together to make the right splits.

[84:08]

And it all came what I was doing it it

[84:09]

it all came from what I was doing every

[84:11]

single day, right? Like if I'm going in

[84:13]

like if I'm going in for a practice, my

[84:15]

coach like Bob would show me the

[84:17]

practice. He'd be like, "These are This

[84:18]

is what we're doing today. We're doing

[84:20]

10 400 back or 10 200 back short course,

[84:23]

and then the last one I want you to try

[84:25]

to go 140." I'm like, "All right, cool.

[84:27]

Let's go 140." Um and I would start and

[84:29]

just descend my way down to that time,

[84:31]

and he would give me goals every single

[84:33]

day of what to hit in practice because

[84:35]

those goals then were hand in hand with

[84:38]

what I was trying to do long-term,

[84:39]

right? And if I did that every single

[84:41]

day and I did, whether it was freestyle,

[84:44]

backstroke, breaststroke, butterfly, IM,

[84:45]

it didn't matter. I was doing those

[84:47]

times back to back to back to back to

[84:49]

back to back to back every single week.

[84:54]

Why? Because nobody else was.

[84:56]

Mhm. What's the definite What's What's

[84:58]

the definition of insanity?

[85:00]

Doing the same thing over and over again

[85:01]

and expecting different results. I was

[85:03]

doing different things over and over

[85:04]

again expecting different results.

[85:07]

I knew I was going to get them because

[85:08]

again, there wasn't another person on

[85:10]

the planet that was more prepared for me

[85:12]

in those last in those two decades of my

[85:15]

of my career on this planet. There just

[85:17]

wasn't.

[85:18]

That's why I was able to have the

[85:20]

success that I did. Was it all about

[85:22]

competing yourself, the old version of

[85:25]

you, or was it about competing with

[85:27]

other people who would come

[85:29]

as your competition in the Olympics

[85:31]

game?

[85:33]

I was competing

[85:34]

>> were you competing about against

[85:36]

yourself or others? No, I was competing

[85:37]

against the clock.

[85:39]

That's it. Against the clock.

[85:42]

That's how my That's how my time or

[85:43]

that's how my sport was defined.

[85:46]

By a time.

[85:48]

How fast can you go?

[85:50]

And again, like I was saying,

[85:54]

if the times that I dreamt of and I

[85:56]

believed that I could go

[85:59]

were faster than the world record or

[86:01]

faster than what other people believed,

[86:04]

if I did those times, guess what would

[86:07]

happen?

[86:08]

I'm going to win. Yeah. Right? So

[86:11]

for me it it it became a numbers game.

[86:16]

But it's said that you knew your

[86:17]

competition better than you they knew

[86:19]

themselves.

[86:20]

>> sure. Why would you say that? You would

[86:22]

study on them? I mean, I knew how they

[86:24]

would swim their races. It's easy,

[86:26]

right? Like I I feel like Like would you

[86:28]

study your competitors, the way they

[86:30]

would do style? What would you study

[86:31]

about them?

[86:32]

>> Well, I mean like I I always I learned

[86:34]

things from them, right? Like I would go

[86:37]

back and you know, if you talk about Ian

[86:39]

Thorpe, like I would learn from his

[86:41]

freestyle and how he swam and his kick

[86:44]

and his underwaters and you know, just

[86:46]

how his body moved in the water. Um you

[86:50]

know, I took a lot of core exercises

[86:52]

from different countries that I would

[86:54]

see on the pool deck. Um just because

[86:58]

like if they're doing it, then I can do

[87:00]

it and I can beef it up. Like I can

[87:03]

alter the exercise and change it and

[87:05]

make a hybrid. Um but like Lochte, like

[87:08]

I mean, I swam against Lochte for 15

[87:12]

years, 10 or 15 years, right? So

[87:14]

um you know, I felt like I knew him

[87:16]

almost better than he knew himself just

[87:18]

because of the history that we had. And

[87:21]

of course, yeah, like I watch a lot of

[87:22]

tapes. I I I mean, I I I don't you know,

[87:25]

I'm I I don't have any connection to the

[87:28]

sport anymore

[87:31]

now.

[87:33]

Um you know, there are a couple

[87:34]

international people that I talk to,

[87:36]

couple international athletes that I

[87:37]

talk to, but I have zero connection with

[87:39]

anything to do with the sport of

[87:40]

swimming anymore. Um

[87:40]

But yeah, it was it was just I don't

[87:42]

know.

[87:43]

Studying them? Yeah. You just I mean,

[87:45]

cuz it's like

[87:47]

you could you yourself can only do so

[87:49]

much, right? So it's like if if you

[87:51]

can't learn from others or others that

[87:53]

have come before you, then

[87:56]

you're just never going to grow. And

[87:57]

again, like it was always back to that

[87:58]

goal of wanting to change the sport and

[88:00]

take the sport to a different level and

[88:02]

You're talking about Ian Thorpe. He also

[88:04]

said

[88:05]

it very highly unlikely that you will

[88:08]

win eight golds. Yeah, win eight golds.

[88:10]

>> you you taped that quote on your locker

[88:12]

room. Why would you do that? It was in

[88:13]

the back of my locker in in Michigan in

[88:16]

2008. Um

[88:18]

because it it it's kind of like the same

[88:21]

story back to my teacher, right? Like my

[88:23]

teacher telling me I'd never amount to

[88:24]

anything and proving her wrong.

[88:27]

And if

[88:29]

a fellow competitor and a friend of mine

[88:31]

is telling

[88:33]

um

[88:34]

Excuse me, if a friend of mine and a

[88:35]

competitor of mine is telling reporters

[88:37]

that it's not possible to win eight gold

[88:39]

medals, guess what? I'll have the last

[88:41]

laugh. Um and I it's you know, like

[88:44]

Thorpe is a great friend of mine, always

[88:46]

has been.

[88:47]

Um

[88:48]

but even like after after that and then

[88:50]

after 2016 in Rio cuz he said no one

[88:54]

over the age of 30 will win an Olympic

[88:56]

gold medal.

[88:57]

Um

[88:58]

he

[88:59]

he sent me a text uh

[89:01]

right after and I was giving him [ __ ]

[89:03]

for it, and he was like, "Dude, he's

[89:04]

like, I know how your mind works. I was

[89:06]

just giving you a little extra

[89:07]

motivation."

[89:09]

Um

[89:10]

but no, I I I you know,

[89:12]

I I always like proving people wrong

[89:15]

especially Especially if they doubt

[89:16]

something that I think is possible. Um

[89:20]

You know, I think one thing

[89:22]

my coach took out of my vocabulary was

[89:25]

the word can't.

[89:27]

Cuz if you say you can't do something,

[89:30]

you can't. Your mind has already made it

[89:32]

up for you. Like you made that choice,

[89:34]

right? Don't do it. Don't think about it

[89:36]

anymore. Don't think about whatever that

[89:37]

was. Move on from it. Because it's going

[89:39]

to be exponentially harder since you

[89:41]

told yourself you can't. Right? So, it's

[89:44]

such a negative word. So, we removed it

[89:46]

from my my vocabulary and and you know,

[89:49]

for me I I I just believe that whatever

[89:51]

I did,

[89:53]

whatever I dreamt of, excuse me, let me

[89:55]

take a step back. Whatever I dreamt of

[89:58]

was possible based off of the actions

[90:01]

that I did, right? It's back to that

[90:03]

quote. Actions speak louder than words.

[90:05]

Right? What you do every single day, how

[90:08]

you show up, when you show up, it

[90:10]

matters. And it's going to matter at the

[90:12]

most important time, right? So, um yeah,

[90:16]

that's it. Would you ever imagine

[90:18]

yourself losing a race?

[90:20]

Uh

[90:21]

sure.

[90:22]

Yeah, why not? What if I lost? Yeah,

[90:24]

because I never want it to happen. So,

[90:26]

of course.

[90:27]

Yeah.

[90:28]

Do you do that?

[90:29]

>> Yeah.

[90:30]

And

[90:30]

>> What if I get second by a hundredth of a

[90:32]

second instead of winning by a hundredth

[90:33]

of a second? Yeah, I'd be [ __ ]

[90:35]

pissed. But,

[90:37]

the only way I can change that is

[90:39]

controlling what I do every day. So,

[90:42]

maybe I have to prepare better, right?

[90:44]

And was there any Well, I think

[90:47]

I think to I think to better answer

[90:48]

that, like

[90:51]

I remember my losses more than I

[90:53]

remember my victories.

[90:55]

Because the feeling of defeat

[90:58]

I never wanted to have again.

[91:00]

Right? Cuz it feels like [ __ ] when you

[91:02]

lose. It feels like [ __ ] when you fail.

[91:04]

It's not It doesn't feel fun, right? So,

[91:07]

for me, I looked at it as if I failed,

[91:12]

it was my fault.

[91:14]

Because I didn't prepare.

[91:16]

I didn't take the time to focus on the

[91:18]

small details that are going to help me

[91:20]

down the road.

[91:22]

So, those defeats

[91:24]

motivate me even more to never have that

[91:27]

happen again.

[91:30]

What's about losing that you hate so

[91:31]

much? I just don't like the feeling of

[91:34]

somebody being better than me.

[91:35]

>> [laughter]

[91:36]

>> Um no, honestly, I I think that's what

[91:38]

it is. Like I just I like

[91:40]

you I think it's it's like you ask the

[91:44]

greats or the goats of all sports or

[91:49]

probably all walks of life. And and I

[91:51]

think they'll say

[91:53]

they hate losing more than they enjoy

[91:55]

winning.

[91:57]

It's just that just the feeling of

[91:59]

defeat. Like I just I don't like it.

[92:01]

It's just something I I don't enjoy. And

[92:04]

if there's something in my control, in

[92:06]

my power to make sure that I have a

[92:08]

chance at least to succeed,

[92:11]

then that's what I'm going to do. And if

[92:12]

I fail and I fail because that person is

[92:15]

more prepared than me, then so be it.

[92:17]

But, I'm not going to show up

[92:19]

unprepared, right? Like it's just it's

[92:21]

not who I am.

[92:22]

Did you use any psychological

[92:26]

warfare sort of tactic against your

[92:28]

competitors which you secretly would use

[92:30]

>> No.

[92:30]

>> and not share it with anyone?

[92:32]

>> No. I mean,

[92:35]

I would say some people probably think

[92:37]

me doing my back slap and clearing my

[92:40]

throat on the block was a form of trying

[92:44]

to get in their head, intimidation. It

[92:47]

wasn't. Um you know, the clearing of the

[92:50]

throat,

[92:51]

I don't know when that came in. I feel

[92:53]

like it was maybe post 2008.

[92:57]

Um but my arm slaps,

[93:00]

I

[93:01]

I've been doing [clears throat] those

[93:02]

since I was 8 years old,

[93:04]

7 years old. I've done that my whole

[93:06]

life. You know, so it's just a part of

[93:08]

what I needed to do in order to get as

[93:10]

prepared as I can be. And if what I'm

[93:13]

doing is messing up them, it's not my

[93:15]

problem. It's not my fault.

[93:17]

Right? Like I'm taking care of me. I'm

[93:19]

taking care of me and I'm focusing on

[93:20]

what I need in that moment. I don't give

[93:22]

a [ __ ] about my competitors in that

[93:23]

moment. I could care Why? Why would I

[93:26]

care about them?

[93:27]

Right? Like I'm trying to beat them. I

[93:29]

don't care what they're doing. I don't

[93:30]

care anything about them. When I'm on

[93:32]

the pool deck, it is a full-blown war.

[93:35]

I want to absolutely destroy somebody.

[93:38]

Was there anyone you secretly feared as

[93:40]

a competitor?

[93:41]

Feared? Feared? No.

[93:44]

I beat everybody.

[93:47]

Even in your head, you would not be

[93:49]

like, "Maybe this new guy or somebody's

[93:51]

better than me or someone's going to

[93:52]

beat me." If I was prepared, why would

[93:54]

it matter?

[93:57]

You didn't care. I didn't care.

[94:00]

I don't care who you were. If I smelled

[94:01]

blood in the water, I'm going to destroy

[94:02]

you. I was like a shark.

[94:04]

Yeah. Tell me the first time you won the

[94:07]

gold medal

[94:08]

at the Olympics. How did you feel?

[94:09]

>> Oh, four? First time ever in 2004.

[94:16]

Because that's what you have a That's

[94:18]

what you wanted, right?

[94:19]

>> Yeah.

[94:21]

Uh

[94:22]

Yeah, I mean, I mean, going back to

[94:24]

2004, 400 I am. I was in the center of

[94:27]

the pool. Went 4082.

[94:31]

408.26,

[94:34]

maybe.

[94:35]

Somewhere in there. Um and I remember

[94:37]

turning back around and seeing that I'd

[94:39]

broken the world record, won the gold

[94:41]

medal, first gold medal.

[94:43]

Um we were in outdoor pool

[94:45]

uh in Athens, Greece. The Olympics had

[94:47]

started. Um

[94:50]

I remember looking up and just looking

[94:52]

for my mom, my mom and my sisters.

[94:55]

I caught them and then I was on the

[94:57]

award stadium or the award podium

[94:59]

hearing the national anthem play.

[95:01]

Where actually the US went one, two in

[95:03]

that race. Uh Eric Vent got second from

[95:07]

Lane Warner eight. I forget which one it

[95:09]

was. Uh and he came jumping across the

[95:12]

lane line and we hugged and celebrated.

[95:13]

It was [ __ ] awesome. Like that kid is

[95:15]

one of my favorite humans on the planet.

[95:17]

I love training with him. Um

[95:20]

And then once we got our medals,

[95:22]

uh

[95:23]

that was day one of the meet. Um I had

[95:26]

the 200 free, I think, the next day or

[95:29]

a relay the next day or something. And I

[95:31]

remember sharing it with my mom through

[95:33]

a chain-linked fence. I passed it

[95:34]

through her

[95:35]

um

[95:36]

through the fence. And and we just

[95:38]

talked about it and we shared the moment

[95:39]

for I think it was a total of like 30

[95:42]

seconds.

[95:43]

Um

[95:44]

and I was like, "Mom, I did it." Um and

[95:47]

that was it. And we from that point, I

[95:50]

heard my coach whistle. Bob whistled. He

[95:52]

had a couple different whistles that

[95:53]

meant a couple different things. Uh and

[95:56]

he whistled like the one trying to get

[95:57]

my attention. And I turned around. And

[95:59]

he just pointed at the warm-down pool.

[96:01]

And he's like, "Let's go. You got to

[96:02]

warm down." Cuz I hadn't warmed down

[96:04]

from the race yet. So, I needed to clear

[96:05]

my lactic acid to get ready for the next

[96:08]

day and my next race. Um so, I think

[96:11]

that was the first time for me where I

[96:13]

learned that um

[96:16]

I couldn't get caught up in that one

[96:18]

moment

[96:20]

even though it was special. Right? Like

[96:23]

yeah, I just won my first gold medal.

[96:25]

But, I had five or six other races that

[96:28]

I had to get ready for.

[96:30]

So, that gold medal is like, "All right,

[96:32]

finished. What's next?"

[96:36]

On to the next race.

[96:37]

Um

[96:38]

you know, like it's crazy. Like I

[96:42]

Throughout my career, I I I don't know

[96:45]

like in the actual moment

[96:49]

with a gold medal around my neck, like I

[96:51]

you know, I don't think I really enjoyed

[96:53]

it or like lived it as much as I did in

[96:57]

2016.

[96:59]

Um because I knew it was my last one,

[97:01]

period. Like I knew I wasn't coming

[97:02]

back. And you know, that's why I kind of

[97:04]

let the tears started coming out during

[97:06]

the national anthem when I was in the

[97:08]

podium just because of you know, going

[97:10]

back and thinking through every little

[97:11]

moment throughout my career. But, you

[97:14]

know, in 2004 and 2008 and 2012, I

[97:16]

couldn't

[97:18]

use

[97:20]

those emotions up in that way because I

[97:23]

had so much other stuff going on that

[97:25]

week. So, it really was trying to manage

[97:28]

those physical and emotional or that

[97:30]

physical and emotional energy

[97:32]

throughout, you know, an 8 to 10-day

[97:34]

program. Um so, yeah, you you really

[97:37]

couldn't I couldn't, excuse me,

[97:39]

um enjoy those moments as probably as

[97:43]

much as

[97:45]

probably people would have thought.

[97:47]

Um but I think for me uh after retiring,

[97:50]

I've been able to kind of go back and um

[97:53]

put myself back in those spots. And

[97:56]

um it's been really cool. Uh just being

[97:59]

able to look at each medal and you know,

[98:01]

tell you exactly what was going on in my

[98:02]

head or you know, who I was swimming

[98:05]

against, who I touched out, this, that,

[98:07]

or the other.

[98:08]

Um just trying to break it all down,

[98:10]

right? Because I think that at times

[98:12]

there's there's still that like that

[98:14]

thought you're like, "Is that a dream?

[98:16]

Or did that really happen?" Right? So,

[98:17]

you still got to pinch yourself every

[98:19]

now and then.

[98:20]

But, winning the gold medal, getting it

[98:20]

>> But, winning the gold medal, getting it

[98:22]

in your hand, you're standing at the

[98:22]

in your hand, you're standing at the

[98:23]

podium,

[98:23]

podium,

[98:25]

>> and you're not thinking about that

[98:25]

>> and you're not thinking about that

[98:26]

feeling of winning. You're just thinking

[98:26]

feeling of winning. You're just thinking

[98:28]

about, "Okay, tomorrow, next race."

[98:28]

about, "Okay, tomorrow, next race." Yep.

[98:29]

>> Yep.

[98:31]

>> I can't.

[98:31]

>> I can't.

[98:32]

>> I could not do it.

[98:32]

>> I could not do it.

[98:34]

>> I couldn't.

[98:34]

>> I couldn't.

[98:35]

>> Because I couldn't I I I had to

[98:35]

>> Because I couldn't I I I had to

[98:38]

>> I had to make sure that like in that

[98:38]

>> I had to make sure that like in that

[98:39]

moment, I had to make sure that I was

[98:39]

moment, I had to make sure that I was

[98:42]

>> getting the right recovery,

[98:42]

>> getting the right recovery,

[98:44]

>> right? Like if I was finished for the

[98:44]

>> right? Like if I was finished for the

[98:46]

night and I had warmed down already,

[98:46]

night and I had warmed down already,

[98:48]

then I'm like,

[98:48]

then I'm like,

[98:49]

>> "All right,

[98:49]

>> "All right,

[98:50]

>> am I getting back on the massage table

[98:50]

>> am I getting back on the massage table

[98:52]

>> and then right into the cold tub to then

[98:52]

>> and then right into the cold tub to then

[98:54]

go back and eat? Am I eating first? What

[98:54]

go back and eat? Am I eating first? What

[98:56]

am I doing?

[98:56]

am I doing?

[98:57]

>> Is there food here? Do I have to eat a

[98:57]

>> Is there food here? Do I have to eat a

[98:59]

power bar or something like that now or

[98:59]

power bar or something like that now or

[99:01]

Carnation Instant Breakfast just to give

[99:01]

Carnation Instant Breakfast just to give

[99:02]

me some energy before I get back to the

[99:02]

me some energy before I get back to the

[99:04]

village?"

[99:04]

village?"

[99:05]

>> Um

[99:05]

>> Um

[99:06]

yeah,

[99:06]

>> yeah, it it was

[99:07]

>> it it was

[99:08]

>> it was one thing in front of another.

[99:08]

>> it was one thing in front of another.

[99:10]

>> I mean, like

[99:10]

>> I mean, like you

[99:11]

>> even in 2012, right? Like

[99:11]

>> even in 2012, right? Like

[99:13]

>> 2012, I swam the 400

[99:13]

>> 2012 I swam the 400 IM, which [ __ ] I

[99:16]

still probably shouldn't have swam it.

[99:18]

Um but whatever, it was a learning

[99:19]

experience and

[99:21]

I did it. Uh where I got fourth. I got

[99:24]

fourth and missed the podium. Um

[99:27]

and that was the very very first day of

[99:28]

the Olympics, right? So at that point

[99:31]

it's like,

[99:32]

"All right, well that didn't go as

[99:34]

planned. So now how do you redirect

[99:37]

yourself and your energy to make sure

[99:39]

that doesn't affect the rest of the

[99:41]

meet."

[99:42]

So I was like I had literally I just

[99:44]

threw it out.

[99:45]

Just forgot about it.

[99:47]

Next day I came back and had an

[99:48]

unbelievable split on the relay.

[99:50]

Um and then kind of built to momentum

[99:53]

back from there, but yeah, it's it's

[99:55]

it's you know, really living in the

[99:57]

moment and I think it's you know, I

[99:59]

still haven't mastered it, but you know,

[100:01]

I think throughout my career it was

[100:02]

something that I was really good at.

[100:04]

Um I think there's a book that I have

[100:06]

probably read a dozen times, The Power

[100:08]

of Now, Eckhart Tolle. Like it's just

[100:11]

it's incredible. Like there's something

[100:12]

really to living in the moment um and I

[100:15]

think it's something we can all learn

[100:16]

from. Like I mean, you guys have heard

[100:18]

me talk about having four kids and those

[100:21]

four kids do it perfectly. They live in

[100:23]

the moment every single waking moment of

[100:25]

their life right now. Um and I you know,

[100:28]

I think it's there's just a lot of power

[100:30]

to that. It's something that I try to do

[100:32]

at every moment of my life. It is hard

[100:34]

um this complicated world that we live

[100:36]

in, but um I think there's if that's one

[100:39]

thing that that you can try to do, it's

[100:41]

living in the now. I think it truly

[100:43]

allows you to be the best version of

[100:45]

you.

[100:50]

What about the time when you won all

[100:52]

eight gold medals? After that, there was

[100:54]

nothing to look forward to at least

[100:56]

during that time. Did you not enjoy that

[100:58]

as well? There wasn't. There was nothing

[101:00]

to look forward to because at that point

[101:03]

I had just done something that no one

[101:04]

else had ever done that I had literally

[101:08]

set my life to do, to try to do. So did

[101:12]

you enjoy that feeling a lot? Yeah, it

[101:14]

was awesome, but I was just like, "All

[101:16]

right, cool. Like I just need space from

[101:18]

the sport." And that's when I kind of

[101:19]

like stiff-armed the sport a little bit

[101:20]

and just wanted to be me. I wanted to be

[101:23]

a kid.

[101:24]

Um

[101:25]

and I learned a lot about myself that

[101:26]

way, too.

[101:29]

>> [laughter and gasps]

[101:29]

>> Put myself in a couple different

[101:30]

situations throughout my life, but

[101:33]

um

[101:34]

yeah, it was

[101:37]

I mean, but but I think like

[101:40]

I if I can understand a little bit of

[101:43]

what you're asking. Like for me like

[101:46]

the sacrifices that I gave up throughout

[101:49]

my career allowed me to have the

[101:51]

opportunity that I had in the swimming

[101:53]

pool. Mhm. And I don't regret giving

[101:56]

those things up. You know, like for me

[101:58]

throughout my career

[102:00]

it it yeah, would it have been cool to

[102:02]

go and like party with your friends or

[102:05]

go on a road trip for the weekend? Yeah,

[102:07]

sure, but isn't it really cool winning

[102:09]

23 Olympic gold medals, too? You know,

[102:11]

so like for me like it was almost like I

[102:13]

have this opportunity to do something

[102:14]

really special and

[102:16]

uh I'm going to have that same

[102:17]

opportunity to do whatever they're doing

[102:19]

right now in 15 years, right? So it's

[102:21]

just like kind of lock in and just go.

[102:25]

>> [snorts]

[102:26]

>> You know what's funny because you just

[102:27]

said 23 gold medals. I was listening to

[102:30]

one of the

[102:31]

uh somebody was explaining an interview

[102:33]

which you gave and the interviewer asked

[102:36]

you that you've won 28 28 Olympic medals

[102:40]

in your life.

[102:41]

>> No, yeah, 23 Olympic

[102:42]

>> And you said, "No, just 23 that counts."

[102:44]

Yeah.

[102:44]

I don't even know how many how many

[102:46]

silver and and bronze I have. It's it's

[102:48]

>> anything which is not gold doesn't count

[102:48]

two and three and

[102:49]

>> four.

[102:50]

in your life?

[102:51]

>> I mean,

[102:52]

it's it's like I said, it's like yeah, I

[102:54]

don't I don't like to lose. So Uh silver

[102:57]

is losing?

[102:59]

You're second.

[103:01]

Right? You got second place.

[103:03]

>> [snorts]

[103:04]

>> You lost.

[103:05]

Third place? You lost.

[103:08]

Yeah, it's losing. I don't talk about

[103:10]

the other five.

[103:12]

I went 28 for 30.

[103:15]

Here's a better way of saying it.

[103:16]

I medaled in 28 out of 30 of my races at

[103:19]

the Olympic Games.

[103:22]

23 are only the ones that we need to

[103:23]

talk about.

[103:25]

Because again, like

[103:27]

I I was unprepared in the other ones.

[103:30]

Somebody else was more prepared than me.

[103:33]

So in 2012 when the bad phase started

[103:36]

and you won four gold medals in the

[103:38]

Olympics and you were sad about it.

[103:40]

Yeah, it sucked. I just want But at the

[103:41]

But like that point like

[103:43]

I think I was sad because I just wanted

[103:45]

to be done with the sport. You know,

[103:47]

like

[103:48]

I I think at that point I was just over

[103:50]

it. I wanted I wanted space. I wanted to

[103:53]

be a kid. I wanted to just grow up a

[103:55]

little bit and not just literally all be

[103:57]

about swimming and like I think for me I

[104:00]

think that's what that's when I really

[104:01]

kind of

[104:03]

stiff-armed the sport, so you will. Um

[104:06]

because all I had done was swim swim

[104:09]

swim swim swim.

[104:11]

And I think at that point I was like,

[104:12]

"What else do I need to do? There's

[104:14]

nothing else that I need to accomplish."

[104:18]

And I just kind of rebelled a little bit

[104:20]

and did my own thing and then

[104:22]

um

[104:23]

you know, realized that I still wanted

[104:25]

it and came back in '16. You know, but

[104:27]

like yeah, in 2012, you know, the 200

[104:30]

fly if I

[104:32]

if I don't [clears throat] have a shitty

[104:34]

first, second, third turn or hit the

[104:37]

finish with any amount of momentum, I

[104:39]

won't win the race.

[104:41]

If I win that race, I probably don't

[104:42]

come back in '16.

[104:44]

Mhm. Right? So it's like for me like

[104:46]

2012 was

[104:49]

I I think that that Olympics was worse

[104:51]

than the 2000 Olympics and I came back

[104:53]

with six medals.

[104:55]

I hated swimming then.

[104:57]

I hated it.

[104:59]

I didn't want to do it. I did it because

[105:00]

I had to. I was contractually obligated.

[105:03]

I had to. If I didn't compete, I lost

[105:05]

all my sponsors.

[105:07]

So I had to swim.

[105:08]

I did the best I could with

[105:10]

not doing much work.

[105:12]

I mean, I literally trained

[105:15]

I trained less than 2 years of that 4

[105:17]

years from 2008 to 2012. And you still

[105:21]

ended up with four golds. I don't think

[105:23]

I was 100% in Beijing.

[105:27]

Yeah, but we we

[105:28]

>> [laughter]

[105:28]

>> I want to talk about that. I want to

[105:30]

talk about that, right? It's

[105:33]

I broke my wrist 6 months before the

[105:35]

Olympic Games.

[105:37]

In '08.

[105:39]

Before the Beijing?

[105:41]

Mhm. I spent 3 days out of the water and

[105:43]

had surgery 24 to 36 hours afterwards.

[105:47]

Mhm.

[105:48]

Right there. There's a scar still.

[105:52]

And there's still a pin in there. I have

[105:53]

a titanium pin in there.

[105:55]

Slipped on a piece of

[105:56]

>> you you gave what you had. I slipped on

[105:58]

a piece of ice. My wrist snapped back

[106:01]

and there was a I basically looked like

[106:02]

a golf ball coming out of my wrist.

[106:04]

And I just popped it I popped it back

[106:06]

in, held it

[106:08]

had surgery the next day.

[106:10]

Yeah. But no, I like I I truly don't

[106:12]

think I was

[106:13]

>> months before the Olympics

[106:14]

>> 6 months before trials.

[106:16]

6 months before Olympic trials. And you

[106:19]

still ended up winning eight gold

[106:20]

medals.

[106:21]

>> Eight. All eight. Mhm.

[106:24]

But I was probably only at But here's

[106:27]

what I don't understand.

[106:28]

>> 85%? 90%?

[106:30]

>> [clears throat]

[106:31]

>> But okay

[106:33]

explain me this, right? 2004, six

[106:35]

medals. 2008, eight medals.

[106:38]

>> Yeah. Gold. 2012, four gold medals. And

[106:41]

2016, again. But you say that only 2016

[106:45]

where you've given 100%. Yeah.

[106:48]

>> Before that, London was not 100%.

[106:50]

>> London definitely wasn't.

[106:51]

>> Beijing wasn't 100%. Athens wasn't 100%.

[106:53]

>> '04 was.

[106:55]

Um but like '08 like yeah, I don't think

[106:57]

I was I was fully at 100%. No.

[107:00]

I could That's what I'm saying. Like you

[107:02]

asked earlier like the 200 butterfly.

[107:04]

Yeah, I was pissed even though I broke

[107:06]

the world record and won the gold medal

[107:07]

because I knew I could have gone faster.

[107:09]

Like that's what I'm saying. Like I I

[107:10]

truly coming off of 2007, that was like

[107:13]

arguably probably better than 2008 even

[107:16]

though I only won seven. Um because we

[107:21]

we I could have I should have won Um so

[107:24]

disqualified.

[107:26]

Uh yeah, 2007 was unbelievable. Like

[107:29]

that best year of my career

[107:31]

um and then break my broke my wrist 6

[107:34]

months before trials. Uh yeah. That that

[107:38]

recovery was was brutal

[107:40]

um but we did whatever we could and and

[107:44]

yeah, it ended up working out, but

[107:46]

yeah, it could have it could have been

[107:47]

better. And I think being better I say

[107:50]

from a times spirit like a times

[107:53]

perspective, a times standard. I think

[107:55]

the times that I did there

[107:58]

would have been faster had I not broken

[108:00]

my wrist, but that was my fault, so

[108:03]

whatever. What was going on in your head

[108:05]

in 2016 because

[108:07]

I heard there was a competitor

[108:09]

who said

[108:11]

"Michael Phelps should shut up."

[108:15]

And then he you were sitting in the in

[108:18]

the ready room.

[108:18]

>> don't think he said shut up. I don't

[108:20]

remember hearing that, but

[108:21]

>> Like somewhere there was like he said he

[108:23]

there was a news about it, right? And

[108:25]

then he was shadow boxing shadow boxing

[108:27]

in front of you and you gave him this

[108:28]

fell face look.

[108:29]

>> Yeah, I

[108:31]

I mean like for me back then it it was

[108:33]

kind of crazy like

[108:35]

a guy

[108:36]

I was on a mission. I didn't care

[108:39]

really what anybody said, what anybody

[108:41]

did. If anybody got in my way, I was I

[108:43]

was going to push you out. Like I I was

[108:45]

just on an absolute tear. I was feeling

[108:48]

the best I'd felt in years

[108:51]

um and I I remember seeing Chad uh

[108:55]

shadow boxing. I was just like, "What

[108:56]

are you doing?" Like I don't ever

[108:58]

remember seeing him do that once

[109:01]

um prior to that point. Uh and it almost

[109:05]

looked like it was on purpose. Like it

[109:07]

looked like it was on purpose right in

[109:08]

front of me. Um and honestly for me it

[109:11]

just pissed me off. It pissed me off

[109:13]

more than anything else.

[109:14]

Uh and I knew there were going to be two

[109:17]

cameras, one in each corner. Uh and I

[109:19]

looked at both of them and I was like,

[109:21]

"Oh shit." Cuz [clears throat] I saw the

[109:22]

red lights. So if you see the red light

[109:24]

on a camera on the bottom, you know that

[109:26]

thing's rolling.

[109:27]

So I was like, "Man, they're going to

[109:28]

have a field day with the reaction and

[109:30]

the facial expressions that I had

[109:32]

because

[109:33]

>> [snorts]

[109:33]

>> I I don't really hide my emotions well,

[109:36]

right? Like if I'm pissed off you're

[109:38]

going to see it. If I'm happy you're

[109:39]

going to see it. Like it's just how I am

[109:41]

and and um yeah, I think that the the

[109:45]

best photo for me coming from those

[109:48]

games or one of the best photos was him

[109:50]

looking like this

[109:52]

during the race as I'm a half body

[109:54]

length ahead of him. Yeah.

[109:56]

>> And I end up winning the gold medal,

[109:58]

right? So I think that's a lesson within

[110:00]

itself, right? Focus on you and what

[110:03]

you're trying to do. Not what others are

[110:06]

doing and don't try to intimidate other

[110:08]

people because it's only going to waste

[110:09]

your time and your energy. Yeah.

[110:12]

>> That's it, right? Focus on what you got

[110:14]

to do. Period, cut and dry. I was

[110:17]

watching that video where in the 2016

[110:19]

Rio you race and just like the moment

[110:23]

you touch the wall, you just come up and

[110:25]

you do this. Oh yeah.

[110:27]

>> You knew like

[110:27]

>> knew. You knew that you won.

[110:29]

>> knew.

[110:29]

Yeah, I mean 0.01 second which made you

[110:32]

win. Like just It It was It was a close

[110:34]

one. 200 fly had it been 201 m, I

[110:37]

probably would have lost the race, but

[110:40]

yeah, I just you just know in those

[110:42]

moments.

[110:44]

But 0.01 second, how did you know that

[110:47]

you won it? Like it was just 100th.

[110:50]

It was pure instinct to go that extra

[110:52]

half a stroke. I mean yeah, like in in

[110:54]

2008 when I did take that half stroke,

[110:56]

yeah, you had to because it was all

[110:58]

situational. Like you know, for me in

[111:00]

that moment like I start judging the

[111:02]

wall 10 to 15 m before the end of the

[111:05]

race, before before I get to the wall.

[111:07]

So um unfortunately I didn't judge it

[111:10]

well. I didn't judge it very well there.

[111:12]

Um but I hit it at the right spot,

[111:14]

right? So I was always taught to hit it

[111:16]

with force. You got to hit it with force

[111:18]

cuz if you kind of baby it, it doesn't

[111:20]

stop until you really hit it. So

[111:23]

um the half stroke that I took

[111:26]

won me the race.

[111:29]

And the glide stroke that Michael Cavic

[111:31]

took lost him the race. Mhm. If you look

[111:34]

at his video, he's going like this. He's

[111:36]

finishing like this. His body, his neck,

[111:38]

and his hands are completely out of

[111:40]

body position. So um

[111:44]

>> [clears throat]

[111:44]

>> yeah. 100th of a second.

[111:45]

>> See, you were so focused on yourself,

[111:47]

you didn't care about anyone else. But

[111:49]

what in your body knew that

[111:52]

you won because until you look at the

[111:54]

board or anything Yeah, I mean I

[111:56]

>> don't know. Like you just came out of

[111:57]

the water

[111:57]

>> No, it was I mean the I mean the very

[112:00]

first thing that I do when I finish is

[112:02]

snap turn and look at the board.

[112:04]

>> Okay. I know where my line is. I know

[112:06]

where my name where my name is. And if

[112:08]

there's a if I see this, yeah, that's

[112:11]

it. Like I mean like most like there

[112:13]

there are some races where I'll win by a

[112:15]

body length or two body lengths and you

[112:16]

don't even have to look at the

[112:17]

scoreboard, but like some of the races

[112:19]

like I mean I think if you add it's like

[112:21]

six of my races together, eight of my

[112:23]

races No, it's probably six. I think

[112:25]

it's six or seven of my races together,

[112:27]

the margin of victory I think

[112:29]

um

[112:30]

six or seven of my Olympic gold medals,

[112:33]

the winning margin is less than half a

[112:36]

second.

[112:38]

So

[112:39]

yeah, it's preparation. Yeah, it's being

[112:41]

in the moment, the right place at the

[112:42]

right time, but um I mean I I I

[112:45]

practiced those finishes

[112:48]

that I did in every single one of my

[112:50]

races

[112:51]

1,000 times, 2,000 times, 5,000 times,

[112:55]

10,000 times.

[112:58]

So when I'm in the race, you don't

[113:00]

think. You just be. That is it.

[113:04]

And what goes on in your head when

[113:06]

you're on the podium?

[113:07]

>> Nothing.

[113:09]

I'm singing the national anthem, that's

[113:10]

it.

[113:11]

No, before even the race is start.

[113:13]

>> Uh when I'm on the block?

[113:14]

>> On the block?

[113:15]

>> Nothing. Zero.

[113:17]

Not thinking of

[113:17]

>> so many people.

[113:18]

>> anything.

[113:18]

>> I'm not thinking of my start. I'm not

[113:20]

thinking of my my breakout, my kicks, my

[113:24]

streamline.

[113:25]

I do my normal stretch my legs on the

[113:27]

block, my arm slap. That's it. I don't

[113:31]

think about anything. There's nothing I

[113:32]

can change in that moment. But right

[113:34]

before the race, you're not thinking

[113:35]

about winning, you're not thinking about

[113:37]

beating. No. Competing.

[113:39]

>> Mhm. I'm like a dog trying to get out of

[113:40]

the cage. Just let me out of the cage.

[113:43]

Like I'm just

[113:44]

No. I'm

[113:46]

Like again, I'm the shark in the water.

[113:48]

If I smell the smallest ounce of blood,

[113:51]

I'm going to destroy you.

[113:53]

And I mean like you can tell people who

[113:55]

are nervous being in the ready rooms,

[113:56]

too. It's It's obvious.

[113:59]

Like that's why I always have my headset

[114:00]

on. I don't want to talk to anybody.

[114:02]

I just want to listen to my beats,

[114:04]

listen to my

[114:05]

my like the the lyrics or whoever I'm

[114:09]

listening to at that moment just to put

[114:10]

me in the moment to to put me in the

[114:12]

zone.

[114:15]

And [snorts] you you would listen to

[114:16]

Till I Collapse?

[114:17]

Eminem. I mean it was everybody. I mean

[114:21]

um

[114:22]

Wayne.

[114:22]

>> me top three songs you always listen to.

[114:25]

Or you used to do?

[114:26]

>> Uh man. Before you would get out

[114:29]

>> It's all Lil Wayne stuff, to be honest.

[114:32]

Uh a lot of it was.

[114:35]

Uh let's see.

[114:37]

Lil Wayne was uh

[114:40]

well, Till I Collapse is Eminem. Mhm.

[114:42]

Lil Wayne was

[114:46]

Uh

[114:47]

I guess like A Milli. Like those were

[114:50]

big ones back in Young Jeezy was a big

[114:53]

one. Uh I mean

[114:55]

everyone of Eminem's albums. Mhm. Uh

[114:58]

Biggie.

[115:00]

Um

[115:00]

There There wasn't really one song that

[115:02]

stuck out. It was kind of like a

[115:04]

hodgepodge of of songs that uh

[115:08]

were just going through I don't know,

[115:10]

kind of whatever whatever would put me

[115:11]

put me in the mood. Uh and honestly I I

[115:14]

think during each competition week it

[115:16]

would really get narrowed to

[115:18]

>> [snorts]

[115:18]

>> probably just a handful of songs and I

[115:20]

would just repeat. Like I'd get off the

[115:23]

bus, restart the song.

[115:26]

Walk out to the pool deck, restart the

[115:28]

song. And I always try to get in a

[115:30]

certain spot of the song before I took

[115:32]

it off.

[115:34]

Just to give me one final little

[115:37]

>> [snorts]

[115:37]

>> little motivation before I dive.

[115:40]

I mean Here's the last question because

[115:42]

I know we're running out of time. It's

[115:46]

if

[115:49]

somebody listening to this and want to

[115:51]

build

[115:52]

the same kind of mindset that you have,

[115:54]

the same kind of things that you have

[115:56]

done in your work, they want to do it in

[115:57]

their work. Okay. And they could just

[116:01]

pick up three specific principles or

[116:04]

habits or rituals or mindset from you,

[116:07]

what would that be? Let's say we call it

[116:09]

the Phelps protocol. Like what would

[116:11]

that be?

[116:12]

>> it's so hard to narrow into three

[116:14]

different things. I mean I think one of

[116:16]

the things that I really live by is

[116:17]

dream, plan, reach, right? Like we all

[116:19]

have a dream of something that we're

[116:21]

trying to accomplish and if you don't

[116:24]

have a plan that goes along with that

[116:25]

dream, then you're going to be

[116:26]

[clears throat] lost, right?

[116:29]

And then honestly it's just reaching for

[116:31]

it. Look, like was I afraid to drop all

[116:34]

of my other sports and just focus on

[116:35]

swimming? Of course.

[116:37]

But I also was able to learn that it was

[116:40]

the best decision for me, right? Like I

[116:42]

found something that I love, I enjoyed,

[116:44]

and that I was pretty good at. You know,

[116:46]

so I think it's really just keeping it

[116:48]

as simple as you possibly can, right?

[116:50]

Like what is your goal? And figure out

[116:52]

the smallest little details that you

[116:54]

need to

[116:55]

get to get there, to reach it, to to

[116:56]

just have a chance to get there, right?

[116:58]

I think that's the biggest thing is is

[117:00]

people want a chance to do something,

[117:01]

but if you're not doing the things that

[117:03]

it takes to give yourself a chance,

[117:05]

all of this is words, right? It's back

[117:07]

to that action speaks louder than words

[117:09]

thing. Um I think it's just what you do,

[117:11]

holding yourself accountable for things.

[117:13]

Um

[117:15]

but again, it's it's

[117:16]

it's what can you do right now? It's not

[117:19]

yesterday, it's not tomorrow. It's right

[117:21]

now.

[117:22]

It's It's trying to simplify every

[117:23]

little small detail. Like again, like I

[117:26]

I say this 100 times. Like my career

[117:27]

wasn't wasn't rocket science.

[117:30]

It was just a lot of small things that

[117:32]

were done well over time.

[117:35]

That's it. Like

[117:37]

don't have an excuse. If you didn't want

[117:38]

to do it, say you didn't want to do it.

[117:40]

Then if you didn't want to do it, then

[117:41]

your goals didn't matter.

[117:43]

Right? If your goals are something that

[117:45]

matter to you, you'll never have an

[117:47]

excuse.

[117:48]

Period. Like for me, like you asked me,

[117:50]

yeah, there were days where I wanted to

[117:51]

hit snooze and not get out of bed. But

[117:53]

those goals were important to me.

[117:56]

That's what pushed me. It's the same

[117:57]

thing now. Like

[117:59]

how can I give my kids the best chance

[118:02]

to succeed in this world? What does that

[118:03]

look like? I don't know. I don't have

[118:05]

the answers, but I'm trying to figure it

[118:06]

out. Right? Like for me, that's all I

[118:09]

think about. It's all my wife and I

[118:10]

think about every day. It's how can we

[118:11]

do the how can we be the best parents to

[118:13]

give them the best life to succeed

[118:15]

however they want, whether that's in the

[118:17]

pool, whether it's in the classroom, I

[118:18]

don't care. Right? I just want them to

[118:20]

be the best version of themselves.

[118:22]

So it's what do you do every single day?

[118:24]

What are your daily habits and what are

[118:26]

your daily routines that

[118:29]

prove that you are trying to be

[118:31]

successful and you are trying to be

[118:32]

great. Because if your habits aren't

[118:34]

aligned with those things, then

[118:37]

you need to look at yourself in the

[118:38]

mirror and figure out what you're doing

[118:40]

and who you are or your goals need to

[118:42]

change.

[118:43]

I don't know. I don't know if that

[118:44]

answered the question, but it's just

[118:45]

like you know, I always hear people like

[118:48]

whether it's a weight loss goal or this,

[118:49]

that, or the other. Like, "Oh, I really

[118:51]

want to do this." And you're like,

[118:52]

"Well, what have you been doing?"

[118:54]

"Nothing. I've been meaning to do this

[118:56]

or I've been meaning to do this." No,

[118:59]

just go do it. Right? Like literally

[119:01]

just go out and do it. Like I didn't

[119:02]

want to go into the gym today.

[119:04]

My head just wasn't wasn't great this

[119:06]

morning, whatever.

[119:08]

But I went in and I got done and I was

[119:10]

like, "Woo."

[119:11]

Like I I feel different, right? Like you

[119:13]

feel different when when you set your

[119:15]

mind to something. Like I get in the gym

[119:17]

this morning, I was like, "This is going

[119:18]

to suck."

[119:19]

I was like, "I'm going to put my music

[119:20]

on. I'm going to put McAfee on TV.

[119:23]

I'm going to stretch." And by the time I

[119:25]

stretched,

[119:28]

I was excited.

[119:30]

And I was ready to try to get stronger.

[119:32]

20 minutes, 30 minutes before that, I

[119:34]

did I didn't even want to come into the

[119:36]

gym, right? So it's just It it It's

[119:38]

crazy to me that

[119:41]

if you try to or if you force yourself

[119:43]

to do something that you don't want to

[119:45]

when it's uncomfortable,

[119:48]

how quick your mind and body comes back

[119:51]

around and you're not in that

[119:53]

shitty mood or depressed mood or unhappy

[119:56]

mood.

[119:57]

Like for me, like that's that's why I

[119:59]

work out still every day.

[120:01]

Because if I don't, then I'm not giving

[120:02]

myself the best chance physically and

[120:04]

mentally.

[120:06]

Because for me, for 25 years of my life,

[120:09]

I swam damn near every day, right? So

[120:11]

some form of exercise. So that's what I

[120:14]

have to do now. For me to be the best

[120:16]

version of me, that's

[120:18]

there's no excuses. I have to get in

[120:19]

there for an hour, hour and a half plus,

[120:21]

no matter what. No matter how I feel.

[120:24]

Tomorrow, I'm going to be sore as hell

[120:25]

from the weights today, but you know

[120:26]

what?

[120:28]

I get through tomorrow, the next day is

[120:29]

going to be even better. And then I am

[120:31]

going to build muscle. I am going to get

[120:32]

stronger, right? It's that process of

[120:34]

it. It's the process of things that I

[120:35]

think people

[120:37]

don't like or skip or give up after

[120:40]

they're

[120:41]

a week, 2 weeks, 3 weeks into it.

[120:44]

Trust it.

[120:45]

It takes 30 days to create a habit. It

[120:48]

takes 30 days to get rid of a habit.

[120:51]

For me, throughout my career,

[120:53]

I would do different habits. So when I'm

[120:55]

in the pool, I would learn and create

[120:57]

different habits for strokes or

[120:59]

repetition or streamline or kick outs or

[121:01]

this, that, and the other. So naturally,

[121:03]

after a 30-day period, it becomes second

[121:04]

nature. You don't have to think about

[121:06]

it.

[121:07]

It's a part of who you are, right? So

[121:09]

it's I don't know.

[121:10]

It I mean, I guess the easiest way to

[121:12]

say things is simplify it,

[121:14]

right? Like break your goals down in the

[121:16]

smallest terms, smallest things,

[121:19]

and take a little bite out of each each

[121:20]

part.

[121:21]

If you try to conquer everything at

[121:23]

once, you're just going to fail and

[121:24]

spin, and it won't be good.

[121:26]

But what now? Doesn't it feel empty

[121:28]

because there's nothing to look forward

[121:30]

to? What are you looking forward to now?

[121:31]

Uh I mean, for me,

[121:33]

everything I'm trying to do in the

[121:34]

mental health space,

[121:35]

um

[121:36]

you know, suicide is the second leading

[121:38]

cause for people 10 to 34. Like that

[121:41]

that's frightening.

[121:42]

Um you know, for me, as somebody who has

[121:45]

thought about suicide multiple times, um

[121:48]

What got you out of it? What's that?

[121:50]

What got you

[121:50]

>> brought me out of it? Um just being able

[121:53]

to learn more about who I am and and

[121:56]

being okay and and understanding that

[122:00]

it's okay to share and talk about the

[122:02]

things and the feelings that I

[122:04]

experience. Where in the past, all I

[122:06]

would do is compartmentalize and shove

[122:07]

them down. Um but you know, I think over

[122:10]

the last 10 years, I've learned that

[122:11]

it's okay not to be okay, right? Like

[122:14]

it's okay to have a hard day. But what

[122:15]

did I learn from it? How can I try to be

[122:17]

better? How can I try to not have it

[122:20]

affect the whole entire day? Who can I

[122:22]

talk to? Who can I go see? What can I

[122:24]

learn more, right? Like for me, like I

[122:25]

just want to ask questions. Um and I

[122:28]

know there are so many people in the

[122:29]

world that are probably suffering from

[122:31]

similar things that I do, whether it's

[122:32]

depression or anxiety. Um and for me, I

[122:36]

I I I want them to get the help the the

[122:37]

help and care that they need and

[122:39]

deserve. Uh you know, for me, being able

[122:41]

to see a therapist or having the chance

[122:43]

to see my first therapist has saved my

[122:45]

life. And who knew that just talking

[122:47]

about things would

[122:49]

make you happy and make you freer and

[122:51]

just be your normal self. Um so yeah,

[122:53]

for me, it's

[122:54]

you know,

[122:56]

chapter one of my swimming career, yeah,

[122:58]

it was incredible and and um you know,

[123:01]

it's something I dreamt of. Um

[123:05]

but you know, for me, I think the next

[123:07]

chapter of mental health and and

[123:09]

um you know, trying to destigmatize it

[123:12]

still

[123:13]

or get people the help and care they

[123:15]

need and deserve or trying to learn more

[123:18]

about it. Um I I just think it's so

[123:21]

unknown

[123:22]

um to so many people and and

[123:25]

um

[123:25]

you know, the

[123:26]

you know, I guess for me, it's it's

[123:28]

trying to help people become vulnerable.

[123:30]

Cuz vulnerability is a scary word,

[123:32]

right? But if you're

[123:34]

if you allow yourself to become

[123:36]

vulnerable,

[123:37]

then you allow yourself to grow and you

[123:40]

allow yourself to change.

[123:42]

And sometimes change isn't always bad,

[123:44]

right? So

[123:45]

um yeah, I I could talk for hours about

[123:47]

it, but like for me, the mental health

[123:48]

journey and what I'm trying to do on

[123:50]

that on that front, um yeah, it's it's

[123:54]

there's no timetable, right? Like it's

[123:55]

just going to be a never-ending thing

[123:57]

and

[123:58]

uh something I look forward to. Um you

[124:00]

know, for me, again, being able to save

[124:02]

a life is way bigger than ever winning

[124:05]

an Olympic gold medal. You know, I heard

[124:07]

the president of this country

[124:09]

say something like depression isn't a

[124:12]

thing. Get busy working so hard that

[124:15]

depression doesn't even affect you. And

[124:17]

in your case, you were working so hard

[124:19]

and still it hit you. Do you Do you buy

[124:21]

what he was saying?

[124:22]

>> Um you know, I I

[124:24]

depression is something. It is a thing

[124:26]

cuz

[124:27]

>> Do you think it won't affect people if

[124:28]

they're like just busy working day in

[124:30]

and day out? Um

[124:32]

I think you you know, for me, I can

[124:34]

speak for my personal experience.

[124:37]

Um

[124:38]

you know, when I did that, I just ended

[124:40]

up stacking a bunch of stuff on top of

[124:41]

each other and compartmentalized it

[124:44]

inside of me and then I just erupt like

[124:45]

I'm a volca- like a volcano. So um for

[124:49]

me, like when I go through depression,

[124:52]

it feels like the room is shrinking

[124:55]

on top of me. Uh and I do feel all

[124:57]

alone. Um so I you know, and it doesn't

[125:00]

matter if I go work out or if I go and

[125:03]

do my everyday errands, I still feel

[125:05]

like [ __ ] And I still feel really dark

[125:08]

and the thoughts that I have aren't

[125:09]

good, but I think for me, it's when I do

[125:12]

have those moments, I'm lucky that I

[125:14]

have the tools that I have to help me

[125:16]

get out of them. And that is whether

[125:18]

it's going to talk to my therapist,

[125:20]

whether it's calling my therapist,

[125:21]

whether it's calling my men's group that

[125:23]

I'm a part of, whether it's calling a

[125:25]

friend, whether it's talking to my wife,

[125:26]

whether it's journaling, whatever it is,

[125:29]

there are things that I have. Whether

[125:31]

it's getting in a cold tub, whether it's

[125:32]

sitting in the infrared sauna. There are

[125:34]

so many different things for me as a

[125:36]

self-care checklist that if I'm not

[125:39]

doing those every day, then I'm not

[125:41]

being the best me. I I guess I agree to

[125:43]

disagree with this comment then because

[125:44]

I think if you have your routines and

[125:46]

you stick with your routines, then yeah,

[125:49]

you're going to be the best version of

[125:50]

you and you'll learn more about

[125:51]

yourself. But if you do compartmentalize

[125:53]

and shove the things down, they're only

[125:56]

going to come back stronger and harder.

[125:58]

Um so yeah, I mean, I I I wouldn't

[126:01]

ignore depression spells. I wouldn't

[126:02]

ignore anxiety.

[126:04]

Um you know, I those two are the things

[126:06]

that I can talk about because I struggle

[126:08]

with them.

[126:09]

Um you know, I get

[126:11]

>> [gasps]

[126:11]

>> I get anxiety when I have to go and

[126:13]

speak in front of 2,000 people, right?

[126:15]

Like but it's it's a part of me. Like

[126:17]

that's how you'll see me. Like I'll spin

[126:18]

my ring or I have like I have like

[126:21]

crystals that I'll take and I'll just

[126:24]

kind of ground myself. They're just

[126:25]

things that I've learned that that work

[126:27]

for me. Um

[126:30]

Yeah, and I I mean,

[126:31]

my depression and anxiety are never just

[126:33]

going to leave me.

[126:35]

I can't snap my fingers and have them

[126:36]

disappear at will. I can't.

[126:39]

It's not possible, right? They're a part

[126:41]

of who I am. Um

[126:43]

I I don't want to say I'm thankful for

[126:45]

it, but

[126:46]

um

[126:47]

they challenge me. They challenge me to

[126:49]

learn more about me and how I work. And

[126:53]

I guess I'm thankful for it. It sucks

[126:54]

sometimes and it's really hard going

[126:56]

through

[126:57]

uh the roller coasters of emotions that

[126:59]

I go through. Um

[127:01]

but again, that's what makes me who I

[127:03]

am. And

[127:05]

you know, I I I enjoy looking at myself

[127:07]

in the mirror, this white beard and this

[127:08]

man bun.

[127:10]

You know, I don't see what I used to

[127:12]

see. And I used to see

[127:14]

somebody with a pair of goggles and a

[127:16]

swim cap on, not somebody with feelings

[127:18]

and emotions. So yeah, the journey that

[127:20]

I'm on now is is a pretty cool and it's

[127:22]

a pretty fun one.

[127:23]

You get some bumps along the way, but

[127:25]

it's part of life. Thank you so much.

[127:28]

I'm thankful for this conversation.

[127:30]

Thank you. Thank you for coming here.

[127:32]

Thank you for spending time. Thank you

[127:33]

for sure

[127:34]

taking us through your mindset. For

[127:36]

sure. It was really an honor to

[127:40]

to to talk to someone like you. You

[127:42]

know, in the middle of the conversation,

[127:43]

you said somewhere

[127:44]

every time you go ask the goat of

[127:47]

anything, they're going to say this,

[127:48]

this, this. And in my head, I'm like,

[127:50]

"Well, I'm asking the goat."

[127:52]

>> [laughter]

[127:52]

>> But it's true. Like honestly, like I've

[127:54]

gotten to know a bunch of them and

[127:56]

like a bunch of the real goats and and

[127:58]

like legendary athletes and you know,

[128:01]

our our mindset and how we go about our

[128:03]

everyday routine or schedule or job is

[128:07]

pretty similar. It It's you know, it's

[128:09]

Again, that's why I always say it's not

[128:11]

rocket science. It's really not. Um

[128:14]

it's a mindset and it's

[128:17]

making a choice, right? If you had to

[128:19]

give a name to your mindset, what would

[128:21]

it be?

[128:23]

>> [snorts]

[128:25]

>> I don't know.

[128:26]

I have no idea. I'm bad at that. Think

[128:29]

about it.

[128:30]

>> no, I mean, I don't know. It's just you

[128:31]

know, it's I I

[128:33]

But you know, like when you say

[128:34]

something like that,

[128:37]

that I

[128:39]

I don't know if I can take credit for

[128:40]

all of my stuff, right? Because you

[128:43]

know, what we were talking about uh

[128:46]

knowing your competitors, it it it's I

[128:49]

I've been able to

[128:51]

take, borrow what I've learned, you

[128:55]

know, from

[128:57]

whether it's other athletes or mentors

[128:59]

or

[129:01]

just people that I've come in contact

[129:03]

with and I've been able to put it into

[129:07]

my terms and my way and understand it

[129:10]

that way, right? So I think it's you

[129:12]

know, I

[129:13]

I I I used to hate talking to people. I

[129:15]

used to hate talking in general.

[129:18]

But I enjoy having like really fun

[129:19]

conversations with people and and you

[129:22]

know, for me I'm still looking for you

[129:25]

know,

[129:26]

different ways that I can change my

[129:28]

routine to better myself, right? From

[129:30]

from any conversation that I have,

[129:32]

right? Whether it's a retired basketball

[129:34]

player, football player, baseball

[129:35]

player, politician, it doesn't matter,

[129:38]

right? Like

[129:39]

like

[129:40]

like for me I'm just always I'm always

[129:42]

trying to learn. I'm always trying to be

[129:44]

better, right? So you know, I I and in

[129:48]

that process, yeah, I'm going to be my

[129:49]

authentic self, but

[129:51]

yeah, whatever we learn, I think from

[129:53]

everybody and

[129:54]

you know, the people listening here,

[129:56]

like you know, I wouldn't say do it

[129:57]

exactly my way, but you know, the things

[130:01]

that that we talked about today, if

[130:03]

there's something that

[130:05]

fits in a spot in your life or fits in

[130:07]

your mindset or fits here,

[130:10]

like I I

[130:11]

do it because right? Like that's what

[130:12]

we're all here to do, right? We're we're

[130:14]

here to help each other, right? And try

[130:16]

to help each other be great, right? Like

[130:18]

I I couldn't have done this by myself.

[130:20]

Yeah, like I swam my ass off in the pool

[130:22]

for 20 years, but like it wasn't all me,

[130:25]

right? So I think the more that we can

[130:27]

work together, the more that we can

[130:29]

accomplish.

[130:31]

Thank you. Thank you so much.

[130:36]

How are you? Good. I just got done a

[130:39]

>> [clears throat]

[130:40]

>> a workout. Sorry, I'm late. It's all

[130:42]

right. It's all right.

[130:44]

I mean, just got out of a workout and

[130:46]

now we're good to go.

[130:48]

All good. Is you

[130:52]

>> [laughter]

[130:54]

>> It's all right. It's all right.

[130:56]

I know it's it's very American thing to

[130:58]

get ice with water.

[131:00]

In India, they they don't give you water

[131:02]

with ice.

[131:03]

Even though we are much hotter country

[131:05]

than you.

[131:07]

I said over [snorts] there. Thank you so

[131:09]

much for watching this podcast till the

[131:11]

end.

[131:12]

Please let us know in the comments

[131:14]

what all did we do right so that we can

[131:16]

improve and keep doing that better and

[131:18]

what all did we do wrong so that we

[131:20]

never repeat it. And at the same time,

[131:22]

please give us suggestions of who's the

[131:24]

next guest that you want to see on the

[131:25]

podcast

[131:26]

>> [snorts]

[131:26]

>> and don't forget to share this episode

[131:29]

with at least one person who will get

[131:31]

some insights because one conversation

[131:34]

is enough to give people enough ideas to

[131:36]

change their lives. I'll see you next

[131:38]

time. Until then, keep figuring out. And

[131:41]

also, don't forget to subscribe the

[131:42]

channel.

[131:43]

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